.::NoThInG iN pArTiCuLaR::.

hiyaz diary...

a few days never blog le... my days were spent doing homework or slacking... haha... interesting life huh? so much things happened on thursday... sighz... until i dunno wad to think anymore... should we as humans actually believe in fate? wad happens if one day, u met someone who seems to be fated for u but ur heart is not with that someone? should one juz give up and resign to fate? haiz... guess i m not making sense here... nvm... the tall tree there shall stand firm and strong... i m going to start doing something to my life!!!

[I wUn GiVe Up... NoT uNtIL i tRiEd AnD fAiLeD...]

.::WoRRiEs WoRRiEs WoRRiEs::.

hiyaz diary...

i m back again... been worrying a lot these 2 days... working has made me realise how hard it is to earn money? and then this made me realise that i only have one year's time left to be a full time student before i have to work and be independent... and the thought is scary... =( it's like i haven even play enuff and then suddenly i m thrown to the harsh outside world... sighz... and they always say working is difficult... so must treasure life as a student... but i only got 1 year left!!! argh... and like we all know... one year is actually vey fast de... haiz... then also like in a few years' time will be twenty years old le... got 2 in front of my age le!!! oh manz... like so old lidat... >_<

and then next year... like so many things also unknown... everything also like unpredictable... sighz... maybe i shouldn't worry too much and juz take one step at a time? okiez... enough of crapping... shall go le bubbye~

[GeT mE oUt Of HeRe]

.::ThE fOrGoTtEn::.

hiyaz diary...

today finally dun need work... hee... last night when came back from work legs like no feeling de... =P slept like a log after that until overslept this morning... meeting joyce at 1230 de but i 1145 lidat then wake up... = somemore need to bathe... hee in the end i was late... then rushed to cineleisure buy tickets... watch the forgotten this time... i think it's quite nice! and it's a happy ending... ^_^

after that we went to suki sushi and had the lunch buffet... we ate from 240 till 540... haha... i m such a pig... we eat until we want to puke... lolz... all in all we had 20 plus plates of sushi, handroll, soft shell crab blah blah blah... plus 2 chawanmushi... by 5 o clock, we are like so dead already but still continue to eat... haha... so for 3 hours, we ate, we chatted, we rested and we eat again... lolz... so fun~ after that walked around aimlessly... hee then went home le... cause i feeling tired also... now slacking at home... =)

shall go le~ bubbye!

[I wOnDeR wHaT dOeS tHe FuTuRe HoLdS fOr aLL oF uS?]

.::FiRsT dAy At WoRk::.

hiyaz diary...

today first day of work at pan pacific hotel banquet... woke up at 8 plus... then went boon keng to take bus... juz nice mindy called me and since i m sorta early, i went for breakfast with her at mac... she also going to work but at parkway... so... talked crap with her for awhile but after that got to rush to work le... sighz... first day without frens quite scary de... hehe... cause wad also dunno... so everything also blur blur de... >_< but fortunately, i met a auntie... she very kind... haha... asked me to partner with her and then she keep guiding me throughout the day... yu dao gui ren le... haha... then finally 5pm come le~ yay... can go off... the guy in charge keep asking me to work till 11pm... -_- but i very tired le... so i say dun wan... heng ah~ if not my legs will break~ they r aching now... haha... but well... think of the money~ $_$

now slacking at home... hmmm~ shall go le~ bubbye!

[HoW cAn I eVeR LeT u KnOw HoW iMpORtAnT yOu ArE tO mE?]

.::ShUtTeR::.

hiyaz diary...

today went to watch shutter with xinyi and joyce... it was a ok movie... at least it is a horror movie with a plot~ and i like the ending! =) before the movie, we went to eat subway... it was nice... like the bread and cookies...

after the movie we went to starbucks again... and sat there to crap... me and xinyi ate the blueberry bagel there and joyce ordered a potato salad... then 7 plus we went home le...

hmmm... nothing much ba... bubbye~

[WhY oF aLL tImEs ThAt U cHoSe ThIs TiMe To TaLk To Me AgAiN?]

.::LaDDeR 49::.

hiyaz diary...

today went to cine to watch ladder 49 with joyce dine and benson... well... the show was quite nice ba... from the start of the show, i already sorta can understand how difficult it is to actually be a firefighter... bleahz and by the end of the show, a firefighter really has a lot of responsibility on him and he has to bear certain consequences when he takes on the job... okiez... that's all ba...

then went to bugis to get salary with all of them... then went to V8 movies cafe eat... had their fish and chips... didn't know their lemon tea is seasons lemon tea so i ordered it... argh~ i dun like to drink that... >_< but nvm... and dine ordered a brownie with ice cream... and oh my god... the ice cream is damn big... like one big ball of ice-cream piled on the brownie... oh manz! but it looks delicious... then went shopping awhile... then went home le ba...

sighz... off i go~

[If U aSk Me, I tHiNk I wAnNa Be Ur GuArDiAn AnGeL... JuZ cArInG fOr U iN sILeNcE fOrEvEr... TiLL tHe EnD oF tImE...]

.::SuRvEyOr::.

hiyaz diary...

went to be a surveyor today for northeast cdc at tampines with joyce and 2 other guys... thanks to joyce i got this job... haha... went to eat bk breakfast with her first before meeting the other 2 guys... then started the survey... not bad ba... quite easy to ask ppl to do... at least easier than asking people to buy something and donate money... -_- somemore these surveys come with a free gift... so i guess people will feel more justified in doing the survey? haha... cause at least they get a little bit of incentive... okiez... then 1 lidat went to bukit batok there... to know more about another job... but that job like cheat ppl one... so not really interested... went back to tampines... then went to coffee bean slack... and then i got pissed after that so i shan't write about that...

came home... watched tv... slack... come online... blah blah blah... juz got off the phone with wl... i couldn't stop laughing... he's comical anytime anywhere! we gossiped like nobody's business... which reminds me how i last time always used to do all this with chingz!!! haha... miss ya, chingz!!! now tired le... shall chat with joyce le~ nitey~

[If OnLy WhAt ThAt GuY sAiD iS tRuE hUh??? ThEn I wiLL bE a HaPPy GaL...]

.::FiNaLLy GoT jObS Le!::.

hiyaz diary...

today school quite slack... talked to joyce throughout all the lectures... lolz... lidat might as well dun go lectures sia... but well... *sHrUgZ* then after lessons went to look for job again... this time 6 of us went to pan pac... and they employed us right on the spot... after filling in the form, they juz employed us... so they gave us to work on next weekend first... luckily is morning shift only... 11am-5pm... i like the time... not like last time must work until so late... >_<

after that went to cafe cartel to eat... shared fish and chips with joyce... almost flared up at her when ordering food... cause mood no good and my patience is running thin throughout the day... after that initially wanted to go back to pasir ris with joyce de... cause she got cca... but in the end, we never go back pasir ris also cause she's already late for her cca so might as well dun go... alighted at tampines mrt instead and went to buy dried guava! =) then joyce took bus number 3 with me from tampines though it will take a long long time than if i juz take from pasir ris... but dun care la... we juz sit and talk for dunno how long... then she went to my house there de interchange to take a bus home... sorry joyce! cannot pei u all the way... went home to slack, watch tv and come online ba... very tired le... shall go sleep now... bubbye...

[Ni DaO dI dOnG bU dOnG dE? HaIyO...]

.::Pw Is OvEr!!!::.

hiyaz diary...

today is the end of pw~ the project file has been handed in today le... well... today very slack ba... my school still has one more week of lectures for us... sighz... >_< all other schools already stopped lessons le!!! argh... sianz... had 2 periods of maths first thing in the morning... wa lao... it's unbearable manz! by the end of the 1st period, already becoming restless... lolz... sianz ah! then after maths is pw all the way le till about 12 plus before going for chem lecture... then after chem pon physics lect cause it's a double period again... ^_^ went to one class room and help joyce's group with their pw file... felt happy that i m able to help them... and wanna say thanks joyce... appreciate u making a chance for me with him... but then some things will never be the same again ba...

after that went home... helped my mom with a little bit of cooking and then went to sleep... tired... today had a sumptuous dinner... cause brother going on his honeymoon tonight so mom decided to cook something nice for them before they go airport... nice~ then had cheese cake that my sis in law bought for me... shiok manz the cheese! ^_^ then went to punggol plaza with mom to get some clothes from the laundry there... then went to ntuc to walk... bought apples and grapes... and the 2 of us went home and finished all the grapes by ourselves... full now! now crapping on msn with joyce... haha... suaning her about certain things...

go and play game with joyce le... bubbye~

[WiLL u ReaLiSe It OnE dAy? If So, WhEn? I tHiNk I nEeD u To CaRrY oN...]

.::JoB sEaRcHiNg::.

hiyaz diary...

went to fill up forms at various hotels today with some classmates... searching for jobs... >_< there were a total of 5 of us... all broke teenagers... lolz... went to marina mandarin and pan pacific hotel... too bad joyce can't join us today... but tml going fullerton hotel also... it's always good to have something to fall back on... so i guess juz playing safe ba to go to more hotels... after that go home cause i having a headache due to lack of sleep... slept at 5 last night and woke up at 9... bleahz... cannot get to sleep at all last night...

came home and mummy cooked porridge for dinner... it is only recently did i realise how important it is for girls to at least know how to cook a few simple dishes... so i m trying to learn from my mummy while i m free... ^_^ hopefully, in the future, i can cook well... lolz... everybody reading this, please dun puke okiez! =) i m serious about learning!

watching guess show now... shall go le... bubbye~

[WhY iZzIt ThAt I nEvEr EvEr DrEaMt AbOuT u BeFoRe?]

.::ThE pRiNcEsS dIaRiEs 2::.

hiyaz diary...

today went back to school to settle the GPF in the morning... we were one of the early few to reach school first... sat at the benches and did work... then slowly, my classmates showed up... hee, so we all sat at the benches in one row and talked crap la... after that meet audi for pw stuff la... boring as usual... and i was so happy today! cause me and joyce organised a class chalet... at first i still scared nobody will want to go... but from today's response from my class, they seem quite enthu about it... nearly everybody is staying for 2 nights... and i m so so glad! =D even those like heck care de classmates also going... oh man! that kind of feeling think only joyce will understand... lolz... then 2 plus went to tm with dine and joyce... had long john's silver for lunch... long time never eat le, their fish seems to be getting better... ^_^

after that walked around tm and went to bought movie tickets for princess diaries 2... went to bought dried guava while waiting for xinyi to come... hee... then after that ditched dine at mac cause she didn't want to watch the movie... so it's juz me, joyce and xinyi! haha... the movie was nice... we were crooning over how the story is so sweet! lolz... i enjoyed myself~ then after the movie, didn't want to go home yet so we 3 went to starbucks and juz sat down to gossip... =P girls shall always be girls... had my mocha frap as usual... ^_^ but xinyi said not nice! >_< but well, i guess we all had different tastes... hehe... and then we juz crapped at starbucks for about 2 hours ba... and we all laughed like crazy... the things we were talking about were really crappy and me and joyce even laugh until cry... buay tahan okiez... never laugh so hard for a long time... ^_^ then after that went home le... thanks joyce and xinyi~ i had a great time with u all... ^_^

okiez... now shall go watch tv le... bubbye~

[Ur EyEs ArE nIcE! =P]

.::ThE doLL mAsTeR::.

hiyaz diary...

today went to meet joyce and benson at the school's bus stop cause we r going to east coast to book a barbeque pit... cause we r finally having a class chalet!!! kinda excited about it... then took 53 from school to the airport and then took 36 from there to go to east coast... we 3 crapped along the way... then we went to gelare cafe for our lunch... i had the ham and cheese sandwich there... it was nice... then me and joyce went to book the pit while benson stayed at the cafe... after that, joyce went outside to fetch dine in... hee... then me went back to the cafe lo... after dine came, the four of us shared a ice cream chocolate waffle with 4 scoops of ice cream... heavenly... ^_^ why does ice cream always taste so good with waffles? lolz...

after that we 4 took a cab to marina square cause we r late for the movie... we r meeting weile there so we went to the cinema to buy tickets first... watched the doll master... the show is at 440 but we only bought tickets at about 450 lidat... y? cause we got lost!!! lolz... we were walking up and down but juz can't get to the cinema... it was so funny okiez... laughing all the way while we r searching for the cinema... but when we went in at 450, it's still showing advertisements... the show was not too bad... but i can't stand a toilet scene that was in the movie... i was so freaked out by that and so i juz covered my eyes together with joyce who sat beside me... lolz... i can't stand myself also... but no choice la... i m a scaredy cat... hehe...

after that we walked over to suntec to send benson off to his guitar lessons... then weile said he wanted to leave also... so me joyce and dine stalked him home... lolz... took the same bus with him and all that... it was quite comical as he keeps turning his head back all the way to see if we are still following him... and we are~ until we all got on the same bus that we decided to give up... haha... then we juz sat all the way back to serangoon interchange la... then we went home le... hehe... dumb weile...

shall go now! bubbye~

[I dIdN't KnOw I cAn Be So NaIvE]

.::MeAnInGfuL::.

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go ! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best.

If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try. You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love.

Love doesn't hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing it's chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress.

It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get beckon the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time!

To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is risk nothing ! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return. How to define love : fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain.

Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, that there were the things that helped you grow.
Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love.
Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart.

Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk, if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love 'coz every time we do, we get hurt, then i figured that's why it's called falling in love.

.::HiS bIrThDaY::.

hiyaz diary...

today actually no need go school de... but have to do pw la... so went to school lo... did pw from morning 9 until 6 in the evening... but in between got slack alot la... hehe... today was ok ba... not very stress... gave him his present... dunno if he will like it...

after pw went back to the bball court that i went with jenny during june during his team de bball matches with joyce and geraldine... dunno y, but i have always been wanting to go back to that place ever since after june? and finally, today i went back... well... the place is still the same... the shops, the courts... everything... wad is different is juz the time ba... yeahz... going to that place got me thinking about rubbish again...

shall go do more pw now... bubbye~

[I m ScArInG mYsELf WiTh ThE wAy ThInGs ArE gOiNg... OuT oF cOnTroL...]