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hiyaz diary...

yesterday stayed at home whole day and rot... =x cause me and my mum babysitter... lolz... i wanna go somewhere slack myself initially but in the end, stay home look after baby instead...

around evening initially going meet dear after he book out cause baby finally go to sleep le so we are free le... i bathed and changed but then suddenly i feel super sianz and at that point of time, i start to have a stomachache... somemore, whole day not in a very good mood... pms =x so i concluded not fit for going out and spoil other people's day with my bad mood... so i changed back and slack somemore... told him not meeting him anymore...

went for a walk downstairs after that... yesterday thought a lot of things throughout the day about us... dunno if izzit caused by pms or my subconscious mind la but a lot of negative things came to my mind... i even thought about those unthinkables which are just too unthinkable to type it out... lolz chim anotz =x i also dunno what point i am trying to make here...

today wake up hoping it will be a better day...

went to swim at tamp with him around noon... then just when we went in the water, it started to rain~ whee swimming in the rain is fun... the water feels warm and it's just different... nice experience =) but gotta get out when there's lightning... sat there wait awhile then after that can go in again cause rain getting smaller le but then after sometime, is out again cause lightning again... then we just went bathe le and go tm watch movie...

i saw huiting and mablerine at tm... last time also got see them... hehe sg is small...

watched poseidon at 4pm... i like the show...

after that went back to dear's house and waited for him to bathe and all that... then we made our way to cck for "dinner" or supper la...

the trip there was bad i should say... also dunno use what word to describe it aptly... cried in front of him... sad... we didn't quarrel or what... in fact perfectly on good talking terms but somehow there's something there... just like how the rose looks pretty and perfectly harmless but they have thorns... same analogy here... things are generally ok between us but there's just smth there that pricks...

he asked me what is wrong... i can't give him an answer for there's too many things that add up already... i am sorry if i can't give u an answer u want to hear or at least a half decent answer... i will be lying if i say i am not sad... haiya i also dunno what to say already la... nvm~

tomorrow going sentosa suntan with lilian early morning... then hang out with her awhile before going to meet my family for mother's day dinner... girlie day tml i guess...

can't wait to leave the country on monday night... i need time away from all this... need to think through a lot of things... looking forward to my trip... =) chingz faster come back from australia~

gotta go sleep le... meeting ll tml at 830 in the morning... i hope i can wake up manz... i am getting real bad at waking up early now... bye all...