had been meeting up more as compared to usual with dearie during the weekdays as he gets to book out more often these 2 weeks due to imf... after lessons will meet him when time allows... sometimes watch movie, sometimes eat dinner... quite contented... =)
had a nice long sleep last night! deprived of sleep!
wanted to meet chingz darling but timing not right... so went out with mum and sis to town instead... we met for lunch and had the yummy yong tau hoo at lucky plaza... it's my favourite yong tau hoo stall!
then we went shopping at taka... went into u.r.s and it was such a mistake cause we spent a long long time there... there was this sale going on whereby buy 2 pairs of shoes will have 15% off and 3 pairs at 20% off... each of us got one pair! mum got flats, sis got heels and i finally got my wedges! hehe! best part is sis paid for us, haha... yay~ quite happy with my new wedges... =)
after that we went to the mooncake fair at basement of taka... so many types of mooncakes! i particularly liked the bakerzin mooncakes! so yummy... they even got sweet potato flavour with snowskin hehe!
did i mentioned i got this soft spot for durian mooncake? haha... but somehow i think i got no affinity with durian mooncakes... during the years when we bought durian mooncakes, i always can't get to eat it!
i remembered got one year is i went for some camp or something and thus not at home, so no durian mooncake for me! another year even worse, the durian mooncake turned sour cause we bought too early and stored in fridge too long... that was ultimately sad cause was so looking forward to eating it... =(
and this new ice cream stall suddenly popped out everywhere... saw it like everywhere i go, taka, cine, bugis and god knows where else...
met dearie after that around late evening... we went to eat a quick dinner and watched a movie at cine... basically, it went downhill from here... so many things screwed up and i got into a rather bad mood... started to behave abnormally and very stubborn on certain things...
firstly, we ordered dessert during dinner and it took ages to serve... somemore we are rushing for the show at 7pm... cancelled the order in the end... like small glitch ya but dunno why it irritate me to hell...
secondly, we bought tickets using cine's auto ticketing machine... chose 2 seats adjacent to each other but the stupid stupid machine go and print out 2 separate tickets from 2 different rows... went to ask the counter staff about it and they asked us to take another 2 seats which is situated in the 2nd row... heck! it's so in front... why can't they just give us the original seats we bought for? i wanted to cancel but already paid for it so no choice... again i got quite irritated and maybe because i m already irritated at the dessert thingy beforehand...
thirdly, the movie doesn't even have a proper ending... i hate such shows! which they just left the end hanging, leaving u to think and wonder what happened! besides, there's this scene in the movie which i found it damn disturbing... i actually cried immediately after watching that scene cause i felt so uncomfortable watching it until the point that i felt like vomitting... how could they beat someone up until lidat! felt like a baby after that... idiotic me
because of the non-existent ending, i got even more irritated at the seats thingy and complained like hell... dearie asked me why i can't just let it go and i realised i have been such a pain in the ass the whole night... sulk and whine and complain... haa... i would much prefer to blame it on pms! i dun think i will behave this way normally on a usual day, dunno what's wrong with me today la!
there had been this problem that came up unexpectedly a few days ago and it is stressing me out... now that i think about it, maybe it's due to this that i behaved the way i did today though it sounds like an excuse when i type it out lidat... but well... i dunno la!
on the journey back, he asked me what's wrong... i didn't wanna tell cause i felt that it wun be of any help as well and so i rather keep it to myself... think he got quite sad that i refused to tell him and told me he felt quite useless... he suddenly gave me a tight hug which took me by surprise and told me he really wants to know so that he can find some way to help me... at this point i get the feeling that maybe he really does care...
however, after that, i got sooo irritated at explaining the whole problem to him cause he didn't understand what i am talking about... used a very impatient tone to talk to him... think for normal people, sure scream back at me or scold me le if i talked to them lidat... but i have to give credit to him for being so patient, good-tempered and having such a high threshold of tolerance... he never raise his voice at me at all and even offered his help after he understood everything...
reached my stop and i alighted without even a proper goodbye cause feeling too upset... felt like crying any moment but it's a public place afterall...
outside the mrt station, there's this group of insurance people trying to get commuters to do a survey and recommend them to start savings policies... this guy approached me and told me do survey le then i can go home... gave him a glare with tears in my eyes, can't he see i m not in the right state of mind to listen to him!!! -_-~ nothing to say manz
felt a hand on my shoulder while i am on the escalator to the bus interchange... at first i thot is the insurance guy haha and i am about to turn around and explode already... but it was dearie... i totally didn't expect him to alight as well cause he supposed to book in soon... but he chose to follow me and see if i am alright... and one more thing is, i forgot to take my shoes back from him while alighting so he wanted to pass it back to me when actually he could have passed it back to me another time... super touched at that time can! and i felt uber guilty for being the nuisance i was the whole night...
i apologised for my behaviour and fortunately, he's not angry at me... we waited for my bus to come and then he rushed off to book in le... sorry again dear!
please dun leave me alone here... i had never felt so alone and isolated from everything else...
hoping tomorrow will be a new day and a much more cheery one... nitey all...
No comments:
Post a Comment