.::BaCkZ aGaIn::.

hiyaz diary...

i m back for the second time to blog though actually i juz blogged like 2 hours ago... haha =p

but suddenly got some thoughts to write down... before i go sleep and forget abt it tml...

actually, now that things are happening the way it is, i m getting more and more afraid...

afraid of wad some may ask...

i m afraid that history will repeat itself...

juz like last year's may and june period...

i dun think i can survive it a second time ah...

it took me quite some time last year also...

really feeling increasingly apprehensive as each day and each night passed me by...

what if things tml will never be the same again?

what if starting from tml, things start to change?

这是命运的安排还是另外一次不怀好意的玩笑...

.::SuBwAy::.

hiyaz diary...

i m back again le haha... yesterday when blog still quite bad mood... but when going to sleep that time jiu better le~ of course got reasons la but lazy type... haha...

today morning woke up earlier than i expected also... so a bit sianz la cause still tired... then dunno found the energy from where to do housework... hehe... i vacuumed the house, then clean my room by wiping the computer tables and the shelves... took me a long time to clean my room... and then i mopped the floor... lolz~ really dunno why got the energy to do all these things early in the morning...

then jiu bathe and went out to meet chingz darling... we meet at tm's subway... we eat and studied there ba... studied till 7.30 pm... then jiu went tm to buy some things... then by then also about 9 le... so went home... and chingz really quite unlucky... she went to deposit cash ah and the stupid machine spoiled halfway... so is like her cash also dunno go where... then somemore the bank's personnel still say tml morning then can send people down to investigate the machine... stupid la... hope everything goes well... dun worry ba dear!

okiez... tml's a new week again... hope everything will go right... ^_^ nitey~

.::WhAt ThE sHiT::.

hiyaz diary...

juz came back from thailand... went for 4 days 3 nights... actually lazy to blog abt the whole trip...

okiez, wad i wanted to blog abt is more abt feelings ba... i m a damn fan jian person i think! before i left, i quite of dun wanna leave and sometimes over there, i wished i m back in sg... but now that i m back, i feel like shit cause i got to bear with a lot of shit from other people the moment i talk to them... and it made me wished i had never come back or even existed... kns can

dun write le ba, sleep

.::WiLd WiLd WeT::.

hiyaz diary...

haha i seemed to taken a liking to blogging in the morning now... =p it's like only 916 now... wahaha... i woke up today at 830... haha a bit early for me le... and i slept around 2... so i think i will be tired later in the afternoon... haha...

hehe update about monday ba... went to school for gp mid year exam... it was still ok i guess... time passed quite fast for that 3 hours... then went wild wild wet with jenny joanne and maly directly after school at about noon~ we had been planning to go for a very long time ago already but then the weather always not good on that particular day or juz unpredicted circumstances... haha so is like finally can go!!! we chiong out of sch after the exam... hehe took cab there... we were damn high in the taxi... then reached le changed and stuff~ then wootz! fun all the way... we went on the adult rides like dunno how many times... and the best part is slacking in the long long shiok river... we juz have different positions of slacking every round we go... haha almost didnt wanna get up can... it's so hard!!! cause it's really really slack and relaxing... =D then we went up and went on the rides again... =D and watched a performance there... it was quite nice to watch and made me think of the baton days in kotekitai... ^_^ then went on the rides... and somehow about 430 we ended up in the shiok river again... and this time it's even more comfortable with the sun shining down and we juz lie there... then somehow we had match see who can swim around the river faster... so is like we teamed up... haha and this part was fun tiring funny all mixed together... cause it's sorta hard to swim fast with us laughing so hard... so tiring ah! =D then 6 went up bathe le... then lidat lo... damn seh after bathing... haha we were practically dragging our feet out of downtown east... then took bus to tampines interchange...

then went to meet minying for the mjc tpjc soka meeting thingy... but ah only me and another gal from tpjc turned up... so we juz went burger king eat and talk... but i was so full after juz having a few bites... horrible... so i gave up eating also... haha then left at 9 plus... but i was so tired so i juz took cab home... hehe... then went home... totally tired... went to sleep at 12 plus but i can't get to sleep and juz flip flip flip around... stupid can... haha... think by the time i sleep is about 1 le...

so dun need to say tuesday lessons like shit la... every lecture is like torture... for me i think physics and maths still ok... the worse is chem lect ah... never before i felt so sianz like yesterday during chem lect... the clock like inching slowly... everytime i look only 1 or 2 mins passed... and to make things worse... the lecturer is monotonous... i have a sianz face for the whole lecture... then after school still got spa skill b trial for physics... cause missed 2 monday practicals for the past few weeks... sianz can... i can't connect the stupid circuits... think i m stupid la or i juz sucked at connecting circuits... then was about to cry after physics prac... cause nv sleep well for the past 2 days so i m damn tired... then add the chem lect in... and add the cicuits thingy in... plus i m leaving singapore on wednesday so i guess i was quite sad during tuesday... for wad reason i dunno also... i should be excited... haha? so i almost cried... but i told myself cannot cry cause it's stupid to cry for such stupid things~ so i was about to go home... then chingz darling messaged me and ask me if wanna meet at tm... so i went ba cause i feel like seeing her also before i leave today... and we went subway eat... ^_^ and yea, i felt better but still not good mood... then reached home about 8... then bathe... slack again~ then mood went cranky... i seem to be irritated at the smallest things! bleahz... i hate myself when i m lidat... cause i will be angry at everybody... then 1am went sleep... but again flip... sianz can... so slept at 2... then now wednesday le!

meant to sleep late but i juz cant go back to sleep after i open my eyes at 8 plus... haha... well... today going bangkok le... honestly i dunno wad's my mood also... juz blank ba... hope all things will go right! =D oh well... shall go buy some magazines le... bubbye... will blog more soon... and my blog is officially one year old today!!! =D

CHANTAL KREVIAZUK LYRICS

Leaving On A Jet Plane

I'm ... I'm ...

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

I'm ...

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say ...

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

And I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

But I'm leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
(Leaving) On a jet plane

nice song... from the show armageddon... that show rocks! =D

.::LoNg TiMe No UpDaTe::.

hiyaz diary...

wahz long time no blog le... 2 weeks! dunno wad to blog also actually... wadever happened in the 2 weeks i also dun remember much... haha~ by right june holidays should start le... but then my school still got lessons for one more week... sighz =( then june have to mug like crazy also for the mid years... haven even started... lolz... jia you ba everybody!!!

ermmm... wad else... well nth much except life is funny sometimes... when u want smth to happen, it wun... then when u tell yourself suan le ba forget it and move on, then all sorts of things u had always wanted to happen do happen... crap! but that's life for u~

okiez juz a short one today... go le~ [p.s i m typing this early in the morning like 10am lolz... i juz woke up =p]

.::OrChArD aNd PiZzA hUt::.

hiyaz diary...

back to update on the past few days again... start from thurs... went to orchard after school with joanne benson and weile... took cab there... we went to far east plaza first... ate the fried chicken... nice~ benson ordered it with a lot of chilli... damn shiokz! then we juz walk around ba... then went to wheelock's crumpler shop to look at bags... then funny part come liaoz... we went to the nike shop... then we saw this whole rack of socks! and there were some real ugly ones... then dunno who started it by saying eh u buy this ugly one then i buy another ugly one... so in the end we chose very ugly socks for each and everyone of us... and we sat at nike laughing for half an hour debating on who should do wad... i luff till i wanna pee~ lolz... i think the nike staff also dunno to chase us out or let us be... and benson said the classic sentence which was the last straw, i luffed till i almost cried... he said: "first time kanna forced to buy socks, somemore being forced to buy ugly socks" and all our socks got names! mine is brinjal cause it's purple and green, joanne's is sweet potato cause it is orange and grey, benson's is banana cause it's yellow and weile's intial sock is ta tio sai with a brown patch in the middle but after that he bought this sock which looks like a bee... lolz! it's really damn lame... and the worse thing is we dared each other to wear it to sch together the next day and we must take off our shoes... and yea we did wear it on fri... damn ugly la all! =p

okiez then friday the 13th... for the first time this year, i woke up late~ -_- i know the alarm rang at 630 but think i off it then went back to sleep... somemore the day before i slept at 9 plus can... kns lo... normally sleep later can wake up, sleep at 9 plus cannot wake up... wad logic is that! well anyway the next thing i noe, it's 736 le when i wake up... then i was like oh shit~ so rushed la... went to take cab... but i waited 15 mins before a cab came! somemore i was panicking cause today morning first period is pe and got 2.4 run for the napfa test... by the time i reached school already 815 le... then my class downstairs at the track le by the time i reached... then changed to shorts... again damn sway... cause rushing nv see properly then i realised i wore the shorts the wrong way with the logo at the back... -_- so have to run to toilet to change again... worse thing is the guys are outside the toilet and they saw me wearing it the wrong way! lolz... i wanted to dig a hole and hide can~ then jiu run 2.4 lo... after the run, continued to have lessons... and dunno y was damn damn tired during lessons... in fact all the girls are... lolz maybe it's because of the run i guess...

then after school went tamp mall to eat with maly, joanne, and some guys cause it's maly's birthday... we planned on going seoul garden at first but dun have table cause it was packed so we went pizza hut instead... then lame la, the guys started to talk about me wearing shorts the wrong way in the morning... i wished i can disappear from the table~ then left at 6... went home... slack... did nth much...

today sat even more boring... was preparing to go out at first... bathed and everything... but then come out cant decide wad to wear... so in the end, i decided not to go out... lolz... stayed at home the whole day... r-o-t... all because of my stupid attitude... lolz... now also feeling tired already... shan't blog le... nitey everybody~

.::HiGh MaNz::.

hiyaz diary...

sunday after dinner went swimming at downtown east with my sis! =D it was a last minute decision la... we had nothing much to do after dinner and she juz suggested go swimming la then i ok! then reached downtown at abt 730... swam till 830 lidat... not very long but shiokz enough! =D then jiu bathe and walk ard downtown a bit... jie got 3 necklaces... damn prettY! they are these big big crystals or rocks and their colours r very prettY! then we went home... by then about 10 le... went home damn tired! but forced myself to study a bit for chem test... yucks lo... haha... then sleep~

monday sch as usual... so so ba... hot day! then cause gp last 2 periods push up to morning slot, so that day 2 plus jiu end sch le... so me joanne benson weile went my fav eatery-SUBWAY! =D we sit for quite some time and it was quite funny as usual... eat till abt 5 plus... before eating, went shopping around for headphones cause benson looking for them... =D then went home around 6... studied for chem test again~ lolz cause test on the next day ah...

then today tuesday! haha had the physical fitness test today during pe lesson... we girls only need to do 5 stations today and 2.4 is on fri cause it is raining ah... but the guys poor thing... they die die have to do both together... so they sorta ran in the drizzle... then during pe ah, dunno y i became damn high le! lame like hell and luff like hell as we went thru the various stations... damn happy dunno y... then the guys ran 2.4 le... then somehow we ended up sitting outside the hall and talk rubbish... then started to lame... some played pepsi cola and we started playing with hair and shoelaces... haha... lame lo~ then we actually sat there till 6 plus... then went home~ now damn tired... juz finished doing some tuts for tml's lessons... shall go sleep le nitey~

.::YaWnZ::.

hiyaz diary...

intended to blog on fri but too tired on fri and sat so only can blog now... =D thurs actually planned to go wild wild wet but raining... so =( but nvm! can always go next time! so went to eat subway instead with joanne and some of the guys... then rained! so slacked in subway quite long ah... but 5 plus le still raining... so me joanne kev shared cab home... then jiu nth much le for the rest of the day...

then friday was ... interesting~ haha cause it was a day of memories... =D sch ended at 1230 cause today got sports meet in school... then before that pe lesson, we have to carry benches to the bridge there... so it brought back memories of last year's sports meet... =D then end school le... cause signed up to go watch basketball match at the bball centre so dun need go sports day... went on the bus provided by the school... haha then reminds me of last year's learning journey also... lolz... cause it's also like an excursion? =D okiez then went to the bball centre at aljunied... when we reached, sajc and ajc girls were having a match... so we stood there and watched... very exciting! then jiu our sch de boys and vjc... nice also but we lost ah... but nevertheless, it was a good game! =) then jiu went back school on the bus... then realised sports meet juz started due to the rain earlier... -_- oh manz~ so we juz went back slack la and watched the relays lo... drank milo... then walk around, talk... nothing much la... then 630 lidat then end... super sianz lo... cant wait to get home and bathe... so went home le~

then sat went out meet connie and mindy... dunno how long never see them liaoz... about half a year for connie and 3 months for mindy... we went eat and study... lolz... then jiu went shopping... then anyhow la... then went home at about 9 plus... cause nth much to do le...

today very tired also... haiz... never sleep enuff ba i guess... sianz one lo... dunno wad's wrong with me nowadays... sleep also tired, no sleep also tired... everyday also tired... eyes also like panda... i dunno wad i can do to help myself also!!! argh~ okiez slacked most of the weekend away... think should go start studying for the chem test liaoz... bubbye! =D

.::MeSsAgE fRoM a GuY aNd A gIrL::.

Message: this is true.. or is it not..hold on to the person that u love..

MeSsAgE fRoM gIrL:

If you see me walking the road with someone else,
It's not because I like his accompany...
Its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.

If you hear me talking about him all the time,
Its not because he pleases me...
Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat.

If you feel me falling with someone new,
Its not because I love him...
But because you're not there to catch me fall.

If you feel lost, I too am nowhere...
I too don't know where the road is going.

Are we gonna cross each other's path?
Or just completely turn around?..

Will we just let go of what we had?
Or go to the place where love is bound?..

Don't let me walk with him,
It's you I want to walk with...

Don't let me talk of him,
it's you I want to talk with...

Don't let me fall for him,
It's you I want to fall in love with...

"HOW DID THE GUY REPLY?"

When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you,
I was behind you every step of the way...
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stand before me.

When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat,
I didn't want to assume anything...
And I was afraid to lose our friendship.

When you thought I wasn't there to catch you,
It was because you never gave me the chance.

You never reached the bottom,
you've already grabbed a branch.

If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going...

Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?

Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side

Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with

Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with...

WHEN I SAW YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO YOU...

WHEN I TALKED TO YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO HOLD YOU...

WHEN I HOLD YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO LOVE YOU...

NOW THAT I LOVE YOU ...
I'M AFRAID TO LOSE YOU...

SOMETIMES LOVE HURTS...BUT IF IT DOESN'T HURT...
THEN IT ISN'T LOVE...

HOLD ON TO THE PERSON U LOVE...BEFORE HE/SHE SLIPS AWAY...AND U CAN NEVER GET HIM/HER BACK

[I kNoW i Am LeTtInG gO... aS LoNg U r HaPPy CaN Le Lo... StiLL fReNs Ya? ThIs TiMe It'S rEaLLy FoR gOOd...

.::HaPpY LoNg WeEkEnD::.

hiyaz diary...

had a tiring but happy weekend... fri after school play ball for a while... it was really fun! then went to subway with joanne and wenhui... after that joyce joined us... then eat le... went to see got movie watch anotz... but the timings are all weird~ so nv watch... so went starbucks and slack... for once, i nv drink coffee... had the iced tea with raspberry syrup... but still frappucino nicer! =) then sat very long ah... had a long talk with joyce too... juz talked rubbish and about a lot of other things in life... then took cab home... then dun remember wad i do le... lolz...

saturday morning go do cip with jenny and joanne at city hall... had subway for breakfast... very nice... then cause we reached suntec de subway at about 940... but the subway only open at 10... so we sat at the subway seats there... though they nv on the lights... lolz... romantic sia... we 3 juz sit there talk rubbish until 10 then eat lo~ then after eating walked around aimlessly trying to find a good place to station ourselves... went to this suntec overhead bridge at first but not much people... so we went funan that side... also not much people but can make do with it la... i juz station myself at some ulu corner of peninsula plaza... though ulu, but still got people walk past and donate... got a lot of 2 dollar notes yesterday... but jenny most pro le... got one person donate $50 sia!

then after cip 1 plus le... me and jo agreed long ago to go eat mee hoon kwey at boon keng so we took a cab there as we are too lazy... =x haha the mee hoon kwey still as nice as last time! =D then eat finish le she went home while i took bus to orchard meet my mom and sis...

we went shopping for a while... then decided to go to sis's club at fort canning there to play pool... cause we having early mother day's dinner there later in the evening anyway... so went there... then bro in law taught me how to play pool! hehe enlightened a bit bit.. at least now i can hit slightly straighter... last time my ball is go everywhere de... lolz... all directions... then bro and sis in law reached le so we go the restaurant there eat lo... okok ba...

eat le went carrefour at ps with mama and papa to buy groceries for sunday cause we having picnic at sentosa... then went home le... damn tired so i bath already then sleep le... =D

then today picnic at sentosa lo... went to tanjong beach... swam back and froth to the opposite beach... =D my first time swimming long distance... normally i dun dare swim long cause scared... but today sis say haiya juz gan gan la... hehe it worked... then eat and swim eat and swim... lolz... like dunno wad sia... then started to rain at 4 plus... sianz! so packed up and left le... then my parents and i went harbourfront shopping centre eat... then took mrt home... now slacking... tired again lolz...

okiez... hands tired le... go le~ bubbye~

[HmMm... WaD mUsT i Do BeFoRe I cAn StOp ThInKiNg AbOuT u EvErYdAy?]

.::HoT wEaThEr::.

hiyaz diary...

the weather is getting unbearable these few days especially yesterday! manz, i can almost see stars~ okiez that doesn't really link and make sense... =P watched coach carter that day... damn damn damn nice! it's like so inspirational and exciting at the same time... the basketball matches in the movie was extremely nice to watch... after the whole thing, felt inspired! though i dunno wad it inspire me to do but juz got that feeling... so everybody, go watch!

and saturday finally had the mee hoon kuay at boon keng... had cravings for it since dunno when but lazy to go back to boon keng la... haha when saturday i ate it ah, the feeling can be described in one word: suang! =D

school is as usual boring... so nth much to update there...

and well, i think some things are changing... slowly but definitely... the feelings are not really there anymore and i juz hoped if possible, he will get together with her and at least both of my frens will be happy! =D was walking home juz now la and suddenly this things juz came to my mind... somehow, it came very clearly to me juz now that it's time to move on and the good thing is me and him are still friends! =D cleared out my thoughts and doubts finally... but weird why it should come at such a time when i wasn't even thinking about it in the first place... just weird timing~ so yup! this is it... see how things goes from now ba!

someone once mentioned to me: wei sher mo ming ming xi huan que bu shuo chu lai? wad if we lose the chance to say it ever? someone else mentioned another thing: i thot me and him shared smth special... but apparently i m wrong... how much do i mean to him? me: good questions

okiez, dinnertime...

[aLL i WiSh FoR nOw Is ThAt aLL oF uS wiLL bE hApPy... If I cAn HeLp HeR, i WiLL...]

.::MeMoRiEs Of ThE pAsT::.

hiyaz diary...

well this week had been ...... hectic~ everyday has a lot of work to do cause next day must hand in the work... ahhh... actually it should be manageable la... but juz that i usually slack until 9 plus at night then start doing work so it's no wonder i have to rush everything out... but busy good! at least wun feel so restless and when u completed the things u r supposed to finish, think most people will have a sense of accomplishment ba... =D

okiez this week thought about the past a lot... like in j1, thought about how carefree we were during the first 3 months and up till june before the mid years... from then on, it's like a turning point for school life... everything is like more stressed and reality like finally sunk in... and friendship changed too... then there's pw and the promos... everybody worked hard for it... pw period after the promos was fun... cause everyone started laming together... in a weird way, pw bonded the class... we will play cards, slack in classrooms with the laptops, ordering mac into the school and eating together in the classrooms... then got learning journey also? i will nv forget that trip... also got the school's sports day... when we juz sat there drinking cups after cups of milo... haha... inter-house games, eat banana at the last minute before tug of war begins so that we can have more energy... lolz, dunno wad logic is that... then last time also every tuesday will go out eat pastamania... before june also always go out slack with jenny... go chinatown buy shampoo is one incident i wun forget also... with joyce also got a lot of memories... our movie mania, then friendster testimonial competition, starbucks frenzy, working at mm, the daily sms sessions, slacking at the benches behind the hall... lolz, all quite nice memories... then got chalet! that was fun also~ still got a lot ah but dunno how to list it all out... hehe...

maybe a bit lame ah why i suddenly type the previous paragraph... but then i also dunno y i juz keep thinking of the past this week... yuan lai a lot can happen in one year... and now time also flies... it's already april... half the year almost gone... to think about it, how much time do i still have with the class and with all my friends in school? not much...

then this year 4 months had already passed... all of us went thru the block test together... getting pw results... getting chinese a level results... the weekly bball sessions... the fun we had during pe... the buffet lunches we had... the movies we watched... cip with the girls and not forgetting our cycling trip at east coast! my point is, sometimes i may seem like i dun care... but actually i remembered everything... everything matters to me juz that i dun really show it ya... and all these memories are like roots... they are like embedded somewhere... they r all a part of me! it is all these simple simple little things which made me realise actually i m very very fortunate... =) it also acts as reminders to me that i should not take everything for granted and start to cherish the simple things in life... they might be simple but they are the very things that makes one happy and feel loved...

okiez maybe this is crap to u all but then had been wanting to blog about this for a few days le... finally it's all out! =D go sleep le... nitey all...

[I aLsO dUnNo WhAt I cAn Do NoW oR hOw I fEeL aNyMoRe Le...]

.::SaKaE sUsHi::.

hiyaz diary...

today after school went to simei's sakae to eat... went with weile, joanne, kev and benson... ate from 330 to about 530... then as usual talked rubbish la... during eating, weile took multi shots of benson eating gyoza so is like when u view it one by one at a fast speed it's damn funny... but the funnier thing is weile suggest looking at it backwards one by one... so instead of looking benson eating the gyoza, it now looks like he is puking out the gyoza... -_- luff till stomachache... then benson ate a lot gyozas mahz so after he eat finish, weile go lame and present him with a "prize" using the sakae menu... then kev taking video of the whole "ceremony"... again laugh until like sai...

then after that we went to the pet safari... the dogs there damn cute!!! i like this pair of golden retriever puppies... then benson like the siberian husky and weile like another white one... dunno wad breed lai de but it looks damn fluffy... looking at the dogs make me happy! ^_^

then take mrt home le... feeling sleepy now... lolz...

oh yeahz, yeterday something unexpected happened... we talked on the phone for about half an hour... =D maybe not a big deal u might say... but to me it is! cause it's the first time... so yea, very happy... =)

okiez la... enough of my crap... go watch tv le... nitey! =)

["We AwOkE fRoM oUr DrEaMs, ThInGs ArE nOt aLwAyS wHaT tHeY sEeM... MeMoRiEs LiNgEr On, LiKe A sWeEt SaD oLd SoNg..." WhAt HaPpEnEd YeStErDaY rEmInDs Me Of LaSt YeAr'S mEmOrIeS wItH u... =D]

.::MiSs CoNgEnIaLiTy 2::.

hiyaz diary...

went to plaza singapura meet up with my sis... we went shopping around first then eat... then went to watch movie... watched miss congeniality 2... recently like got a lot nice movies... and a few more is showing soon... ahhH~ not sure if have the time to catch them all... =D

school de timetable also change le... fri short day 1230 release become 2 release... =( because of remedial lessons... oh crap~ but guess it's for our own good also if not all our j1 work confirm out of sight out of mind...

okiez... this week had been a roller coaster ride... lesson learnt is nv take anything or anyone for granted even if they are always there... now that things had changed, then i noe how to regret... but it's too late... things will take some time before it goes back to the way it is or worse situation is, it will nv go back to the way it is... have nobody to blame but me... i wish i can be truthful to some people... =( but i m scared of the consequences... oh well... will juz give it deeper thought and find the best solution if possible... most importantly is to remain positive and calm? =(

well shall go bathe now... hot weather... tata~

[ThInGs ArE dIfFeRenT aLrEaDy... HoPe EvErYtHiNg gOeS wELL... =D]

.::VoLLeYbaLL::.

hiyaz diary...

today slack day as usual... had been tired this whole week since tuesday... dunno is sleep not enough or wad... everyday 10 plus i feel tired le... go home after school also only feel like sleeping... hehe but well, guess i will survive~

today after school played basketball for a while with 214... but after that, we switched to volleyball le... kinda funny... and it's like a bit of de-stress from all the hoo-ha over the march block test... so yep, feels good to be playing and not worrying abt other things for the time being... =D

somemore, today everyone around me seems to be in a happy happy mood... and that makes me happy also! cause seeing their smiles and feeling their lameness is enough to make me happy too... looking at my classmates' happy faces, there's juz this feeling of joy ba... =D so in good mood now... had an enjoyable day overall...

haiz tomorrow got cip... =( dun feel like doing it at all... but then no choice la... need the hours sighz... why didnt they do away with the PEARLS system for my batch! *sObZ* but well, what to do~ = hopefully tomorrow will be slack! okiez dokez, i m feeling tired again... haha shall go watch tv... nitey~

[EvErY mOmEnT sPeNt WiTh YoU aRe SoMe Of tHe BeSt TiMeS Of My LiFe... =D]

.::CyCLiNg At EaSt CoAsT pArK::.

hiyaz diary...

today going east coast park to cycle with my classmates... my aim is to learn cycling... lolz... well so morning met joanne... then go parkway wait for the others... but well... it rained on our way there... juz nice we alighted at the bus stop then rain... -_- heavily... so we thot we will be safe at the bus stop, cause can get shelter and stuff mahz... but the wind damn strong... blow all the rain in... -_- so imagine, even though we are sheltered me and joanne got all wet! then the wind keep blowing... and we wet already so we are damn damn cold... haha sianz lo the weather... then we are the earliest though we are late by half an hour... lolz -_- so the next one to come is benson but he's at the opposite bus stop... me and joanne wait rain small a bit then quickly chiong for the other side... heng sia! when we reached the other side, the rain big again... then cause we r feeling damn cold, so we went the hawker centre to get hot drinks... me benson and joanne slacked there and talk lo... then we decided to go parkway shopping centre when the rain small again... so went there... had roti boy... nice... ^_^ then we 3 bored so went arcade play... played the puck thingy, dunno wad it is called... then they played time crisis... then we 3 went to race car against each other... damn fun lo! joanne damn pro... 1st in all 3 matches... haha... she ah, thumbs up! then 230 the rest of the people came le... -_- then they went arcade play... so me and joanne played the puck game again but different machine from the first one we played... damn fuN~

then we walked to mal's house since it was on the way to the beach... waited for her to pump her bicycle... then off we go~ went to east coast park... rented bikes and a double bike... cause i dunno how to cycle mahz... so me and mal used the double bike... then i sat behind cause behind only need paddle nia, dun need keep balance and all that... then we cycled to bedok jetty, well, the feeling, all i can say is ShIoKz~ =D cause as u go, the wind blowing into ur face... and everything juz seems so nice u noe... u can juz talk to the person in front of u... then johnson kevin joanne yanzhu benson mallory teach me cycling at the jetty there... =x lolz so many teachers... BUT i only got half of it... haha cause i still cant keep my balance... then cycle double bike again but this time with johnson cause mal riding alone... so we went further further further down... far~ = then they taught me again at this far place... haha this time better a bit, i can go a short distance before i will lose my balance... and i fell once here... =x lolz... but not serious only scraped some skin on the toe... ^_^ but then learn learn, then gotta cycle back return bike le... cause we only rent for 3 hours... so cycled back again on the double bike... we are so far it took us a whole 40 minutes to cycle back... haha legs aching sometimes during the 40 minutes but nv slack for longer than 1 minute cause like tiring for the other person... the 40 mins, butt hurts... lolz... maybe i nv sit properly i also dunno... *sHrUgZ*

then went back mac eat dinner at abt 630... had the grilled chicken foldover... first time trying it... nice i like... =) then eat until 7 plus... saw some secondary 4 classmates... then we went the funfair at the beach there play bumper car... played twice cause the first time was so fun~ first time i shared with mal, joanne shared with yanzhu and johnson shared with kevin... the others all one car... but second time everyone one car... then second time even more fun! =D bumped like mad~ okiez... then walk to 7 eleven while deciding where to go...

in the end, mal invited us to her house to watch dvds... got me yanzhu joanne kevin johnson... watched "the perfect score" it's a show about SATs and how these bunch of students stole the answers to it... quite nice... ^_^ then mal's parents very good hosts... they keep stuffing us with food... they made sandwiches and orange juice just for us... then still got apples and snacks... lolz... damn good! then watched until 1130 lidat... then mal sent us down... so me joanne kevin shared a cab home... reached home 1230... bathed...

now blogging... well... legs aching now... then butt ache also... then having fever, so head a bit heavy... argh~ think from the rain and the wind when it rained... so shall go sleep le ba...

[SoMe Of ThE gAn JuE yI jInG bU yI yAnG Le... ThE mOsT hUrTiNg ThInG iS sEeInG u PuSh Me To AnOtHeR gUy... DuN u GeT iT, tHe FeELiNgS FoR u tHouGh DiFFerEnt Is StiLL tHeRe?]

.::GoOd FrIdAy::.

hiyaz diary...

today is public holiday cause good friday... ^_^ block test yesterday over le... after the test yest went out with the class... slacked around... then after that joanne lost her wallet... but heng today someone called her and tell her found the wallet le... somemore all her money and stuff still inside... ^_^ then around 5 meet chingz and went orchard... went to wheelock de apple centre for awhile... then went to eat ajisen ramen... yummY~ then sat outside taka de benches until 9 plus together... juz sit there slack and talk... cause dun feel like going home so early yet... then went home le... slacked somemore...

today went to grandmother's house with my mummy... then went to chinatown from there... ate a lot of stuff... lolz... then went home at 8... well... nothing much to do now... a bit felt like sleeping... =P becoming pig le...

okiez, actually nothing much to blog... shall stop here le ba... go off le... bubbye~

[SoMeTiMeS i DuN eVeN nOe WaD i WaNt]

.::BoRiNg SaTuRdAy::.

hiyaz diary...

well today had been a boring saturday... woke up at 11... went for breakfast at punggol plaza with mummy... then came back... made fruit juice for my parents and myself... well that took me about an hour? lolz... then slack and download songs... well... slack la... juz dun feel like studying... then chatted the whole noon away on msn... then had dinner early... at about 6 lidat ba... eat until now cause eat pomelo also... i almost finished the whole pomelo myself... hehe... cause it was very sweet and juicy~ ah, i juz realised wad i juz typed was all crap... hehe... =P

well... this march holidays is so not fun and enjoyable... so there's nth much interesting to blog abt... hmmm, thinking about it, now march also coming to an end soon le... so fast... is like i only have half a curriculum year left... why time pass so fast de!!! haha is like everytime i blog, i will always realise the fact that time flies...

oh yeahz, yest fri last episode of the serial "u are the one"... is a happy ending la... but the ending left me with some questions... why do people always say wad they wanna tell another person only when the other person is about to leave them or go overseas? haha yes, even i admit i m guilty of this... but well the bright side is that at least wadever we wanted to say were said... =) even though it may be last minute... right?

okiez dun crap so much le... in a calm mood now... and it's rare nowadays... so i shall enjoy it while it last... lolz... bubbye...

[WeLL, If U wErE nOt LeAvInG aT ThAt TiMe, DuN tHiNk ThInGs WiLL bE LiKe It Is NoW... I mUsT sAy ThAnKs FoR tHe MeMoRiEs U hAd GiVeN mE aLL tHeSe WhiLe... WhEn I m SaD, u WeRe 1 Of ThE fEw WhO LiStEnEd To Me AnD cHeErEd Me Up... U aSsUrEd Me ThAt U wUn LeAvE mE aLoNe HeRe... ThAnK u...]

.::WaLk WaLk::.

hiyaz diary...

juz returned from a walk... went alone cause juz wanna stone abit... after dinner went downstairs... sat at the garden downstairs... right beside the basketball court... watched people shoot... seemed to get some calmness from it, dunno why... juz focus on the chop sound... then after awhile got away from there... saw alot alot of stars on the way back... probably the most stars i ever saw at one time... saw the orion constellation also... and some arrow thingy and 2 super bright stars... well, looking at them comforted me in some way... then went to the lift lobby... stood there for a few minutes... dunno wad i m thinking also... now back le... somehow i feel better... maybe now is the time to do some studying... off i go le... bubbye diary...

[MaYbE i StiLL nEEd U tO iNjEcT sOMe MEaNiNg InTO My LiFe CaUsE rIgHt NoW, My LiFe FeELs MeAnInGLeSs WhEnEvEr I rEmInD mYsELf Of ThE FAcT tHaT i MuSt LeT u Go...]

.::AwAkEnInG sLaP::.

hiyaz diary...

honestly, i m damn sad now... cause today i finally gotten the awakening slap... i finally noe wad it all meant le... and the truth sucks... it hurts... alot... but i can't cry... cause there's no point anymore... not sure if i can divert my energy to something else such as studies right now... but i will try my best to put things behind me and concentrate on my studies le... actually the truth had always been smacked right in front of my face but i dunno y i only realised it about 3 months later... which is now... i m juz so naive...

these few days were sorta doing research for the hospitality courses that i can take up after a levels... found a few possible routes and plans... and i m even more sure i really wanna study hospitality after these few days of surfing the net for info... so there's nothing much to do now except to work hard and fulfill my aspirations thru my own efforts... sorta inspired by the senior in my sch who came back to share with us his story on how he worked hard and achieve wad he had achieved today... so ya...

i m so scared i can't bear to let go and say goodbye... really really scared... izzit a really tough road ahead? i m scared to take the first step... i m not sure if i have the courage also... wad if i dun? feeling lost... and confused maybe? is this the end already? do i really want a full stop to this story? i m only full of questions and no answers... i think my mind know wad's the best thing to do but how do i convince my heart?

[If I cAn HaVe OnE LaSt dAy WiTh U, i WiLL tReAsUrE iT... bUt ThE pRoBLeM iS, i DuNnO hOw To SaY gOoDbYe... MeMoRiEs ArE fUnNy ThInGs... ThEy CaN mAkE u HaPpY, bUt ThInK aBoUt It, WhEn U r ReMiNdEd Of ThE hApPy MeMoRiEs, DuN u UsUaLLy FeEL sAd BeCaUsE aLL tHoSe ThInGs HaPpEnEd In ThE pAsT aNd It WiLL nEvEr HaPPeN aGaIn... It Is ThE mEmOrY iTsELf ThAt MaKeS u ReaLiSe WhAt U hAvE aLrEaDy LoSt...]