ThE GrEaTeSt ReGrEtS iN oUr LivEs ArE ThE RiskS wE diD nOT TakE. If U ThiNk SOmEtHing wILL MakE u haPPy, GO FOR IT. ReMemBer ThaT wE pAsS ThIS WaY OnLy OncE. Bottom-line : Time doesn't wait. If you think you might have found the right one, treasure the person, don't let that person get away. Don't let fear hold You back. Give it a try else you might regret later... "No one other than ourselves know what can truly make us happy."
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
.::MiNd In A wHirL::.
today morning went back school for chem lesson... damn slack today ah... go through transition elements tutorial only... 1130 jiu can go le when lesson is supposed to end at 12... then after school initially planned to go subway eat with joanne... but in the end, we saw the guys and they persuaded us not to go subway... so we went han's instead... then eat le jiu went home le...
okiez, then came home slack... nv study at all... =( have been watching "The Notebook" on dvd... very sweet show! and rachel mcadams is quite sweet looking! then today mama cooked curry fish for dinner... then dip with bread... yummy manz! makes me all the more wanna learn cooking! haha hopefully, one day i can cook for my family and friends! ^_^
honestly dunno where r things leading to right now... everything is like juz whirling around in my mind... and i m tired of analyzing! wad i need is answers... but i dunno how to get them... =( but i told myself, i will juz cherish the way things are now... i dun wan to have regrets again... at least in the future, i can at least assure myself that i had made the best out of it instead of taking it for granted... and actually, i believe, it is all a matter of choices... since i made the choice, then i guess i will be ready for any consequences... and i will have no one to blame but myself... yes i know all this... but still can't help doubting myself on whether i m able to face reality when the truth really comes... maybe no one will understand ba... but it's ok... i m juz crapping to myself...
on a happier note, going to seoul garden with chingz darling on friday! i can't wait!!! cause i can talk all sorts rubbish with her again... =D
hmmm... quite tired now... shall go lie on bed rest rest le though i feel quite guilty for not doing any work... sighz... nitey~
[I hAvE gOt So MuCh To SaY tO yOu RiGhT nOw... So MuCh To AsK yOu... BuT i DuNnO wHeRe To StArT... dUn LeAd Me On If YoU dUn MeAn AnYtHiNg Ya... I dUnNo If I cAn DeaL wItH iT... i Am ScArEd...]
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
.::=D::.
today woke up around 9 plus... went to bedok to meet him study... went with mixed feelings... scared and yet looking forward to it... was scared that it might be awkward but it was really ok i guess... =D we went to mac... both of us reached around 11.15 but i was slightly early... so yea... and he was quite sweet today...
hmmm... actually dunno how to describe how i feel right now... it's a little of everything i guess... happy, calm, tired, contented... bleahz... i also dunno~ mind in a whirl but calm in my heart... haha chim eh? i also dunno wad the hell i talking about... =p
off le~
Monday, June 13, 2005
.::EvErYtHiNg Is LiKe A dReAm NoW::.
whee~ okiez after sat then i nv update le... but well spent sunday at home doing chem tutorial that's due on monday and studying physics! finally finish flipping through the physics notes le... hehe key word is FLIP~ then watched iron ladies... haha quite a funny show... =D then i dun remember wad i do le... hehe but the period when i was lying in bed and preparing for sleep was a happy one... =D then this morning woke up at 9 for chem extra lesson at school... haha time passed quite fast actually during the lesson cause i was sitting with the powerpuff girls! lolz... so we talked non-stop ah~ hehe it was quite enjoyable really...
everything that's happening now seems like a dream cause it's so unreal... sometimes i think so much about it that i have even started to doubt myself about if it really happened or did i juz imagine the whole thing up myself... =x ermmm... jenny once told me, sometimes things happen when we least expect it... how true she is! who would have thot things will turn out the way it is now... it's juz weird la the way things works sometimes... in general and on the whole... yeahz... dunno how to explain~ but someone please pinch me juz in case!
and yea, sometimes wish time can juz stop at that particular moment manz... i wish things will always be the same sometimes and they will not change for the worse... but i also know there's no such thing ba... things will always be changing and the world will always be spinning no matter wad happens to the people living on it... so well, wad i can do is to make the best out of everything and enjoy it while it lasts... must plant this firmly inside my brain so that i will remember it for life... must must must!
looking forward to tml! hopefully it wun be awkward ba... =D off le~ nitey...
Saturday, June 11, 2005
.::CLaSs ChALeT 2::.
today juz came back from the class chalet... was the second one we had... first day went to pasir ris first to meet kev and weile... then we went simei to meet joanne to buy the barbeque stuff... then we went east point eat... but joanne's car kanna scratched... i see le also feel abit sad... sorry ah joanne! hope ur car okiez now le! then she drove us to east coast park... then checked in ba... that time around 3 le... sorry to benny also for making u wait so long for us... then we slack in room awhile... and there's only 5 of us - me joanne kev weile benson... so we talk rubbish... then go rent bikes... then me and jo shared a double bike... fun~ went to east coast lagoon there to have a drink... hehe... not bad la slack... then uday called to say he reach le... so 5 plus we cycle back to chalet... then felix also come le... then we went out to begin starting a fire... then started the bbq ba... the others also slowly arrived le... then eat and talk rubbish... i watched maly swim with her sisters for awhile... then eat~ the food quite nice... lolz... thanks uday benny and jerrold for being in charge of cooking most of the time... =D i keep bbq-ing the marshmallows... very nice! =D then 945 lidat packed up cause most of them wanna watch lost on channel 5 at 10... so they went back watch... then me dine and benson decide to go 7-11 to see wad there is to buy... me and dine walked while benny cycled... then along the way, saw johnson they all with extra bikes cause they went to rent... so i took one and tried to learn to cycle... cause not much people ah... so i wun bang into people while i learn... then was damn happy cause along the way to 7-11, i managed to cycle for some distance le!!! hehe finally learnt it... ^_^ nice feeling! then reach 7-11 there... then me and dine shared a coffee bean chocolate ice blended... then benny bought his things from 7-11... then we cycled back to chalet... then reached chalet about 1130 le... then watched lost with the rest of them till it ended at about 1145...
then the guys went off to cycle to dunno where... then slacked in chalet for awhile... then me and joanne bored so we decide to go cycling also by ourselves... we cycled to bedok jetty... and manz it was quiet... not much people... haha if u ask me to cycle without her, i will freak out cause some of the roads quite dark and totally no people... then reached the jetty around 1 ah i think... then we sit there talk and enjoyed the cool breeze... shiokz manz! we talk and talk until 230 lidat... then i suggested going back chalet to get a drink and pee... lolz =x so we went back... then halfway back, we saw the guys... then we decide to go back chalet get drinks first then cycle back to bedok jetty again to catch the sunrise... then this second time when we cycled to the jetty again, me and jo realised how scary the route we took juz now is... it juz seems scarier... it doesn't make sense cause this time round, we got more people with us... haha... dunno la... then when reached the jetty already 4am le... and all our butts hurt like shit cause all our bicycle seats dunno why so hard... argh~ lolz i can't even sit properly when i reached the jetty... then me and joanne went to sit different benches this time round cause we thot we can have more space to lie down and sleep if we want to... but in the end, split le also nv sleep... then talked to jg... talk rubbish... then jo also got people pei her talk... then about 6am benson dine and weile reached the jetty... they walked from the chalet... sorry to them cause me and joanne took one of their bikes... hee~ then we all talked while waiting... but ah, 630 came and we realised the sky like turning blue liaoz... meaning we can't see the sunrise liaoz... =( think blocked by the flats ah... but then at that moment in time, the sky's colour really damn nice... together with the clouds... so we took pictures... the sky like blend in together with the sea and there's no clear division... that is already beautiful enough... i can't imagine how pretty the sunrise will be... but didnt have a chance to catch it... =( then cause not enough bikes, so some cycled back to chalet... me jo and dine walked back... then reach chalet about 730 or 8 le... jo went back and we sent her to the carpark... then went back chalet to bathe cause all of us stinks... then we went t mac for breakfast... again some cycled there and me, dine and kevin walked there... then eat finish went back to chalet... walked back~ reached chalet around 1030 le... then some guys left to go home sleep and come back later that evening and some people went home already... so only left me benson kevin weile and felix... then weile and felix went back they straight go to the bottom bed and sleep... haha lame them... then me kev and benny lie on the bed and talk... i was quite tired but then i can't get to sleep cause high in a way... maybe it's because the milo i drank at mac... noon came along and we lame around lidat until about 130 then we drifted off to sleep... haha for that 3 hours i also dun remember wad we do... like talk lame things and play lame games like trying to flip our phones around trying to get on top of another phone... haha people uses erasers to play that but we go and use phones... -_- and we took videos of us vanishing... it look so convincing la! when we watched it, we laughed like dunno wad and then weile and felix keep waking up to ask us keep quiet... =x but we like dun care continue making alot of noise... finally went to sleep... but unfortunately i sleeping on my phone and kev's phone... then yz called kev... at about like 2... so i kanna "vibrated awake"... sianz can... cause after that i can't get back to sleep le... keep flipping... only slept half hour... =( then jenny came! then we watched tv la... then 4 plus we went out to eat... juz the 5 of us... went to hawker centre eat... then monkey came... then we went arcade play while waiting for jg and yz to meet us... they reached about 7... then they went to yoshinoya for dinner cause they haven eat... then looking at them eat, the original 5 of us also tempted so we ate again... haha... then we juz slack at yoshinoya till 9 lidat... then went to giant buy some bottled drinks back cause no more drinks le... then cause got 7 of us so we split 2 cabs go back... then me jg weile and felix one cab... they bought ice cream to eat... and they gay in front of everybody at the taxi stand... they actually start to feed each other ice cream... haha i saw the guy behind us got this stunned look on his face... i buay tahan burst out laughing... then back at chalet at 945 le... i a bit tired out... so nv talk much... watched tv until 10... then cause yz brought his laptop... so they showed us this "comedy" variety show... it seemed funny to all of them cause all of them are laughing... but me ah, the whole 45 minutes show, i was like nv laugh much... cause honestly i dun think it's funny... haha... really dun get wad's funny! then yz showed me happy tree friends... haha now that one is really funny can... but this time round, the others are not really laughing as hard as me... so they say me sadistic... lolz~ but it really was funnier than the previous one... =x then listened to songs on his laptop and talked... then midnight le...
so me went bathe... then played cards with kev weile and benson for awhile... then 1 plus, weile slept... next is me kev ko~ then the others still high and playing with the laptop... then maybe too tired le, i slept like log... nv wake up once during the whole night... woke up at 640... then i realised like early so went back sleep again... then i noe weile 7 plus woke up... i waved to him then went back to sleep again... haha then 8 brush teeth and stuff... then come back sit on bed... then the other guys also woke up and playing games on the laptop... i watched them play awhile then i fell back to sleep again... lolz... pig... slept till 10 lidat... then wake up, all of us packed up then checked out le...
then me weile benson felix went to parkway eat... went to mos burger but i juz had a drink cause meeting chingz darling at 2 later to go subway and pass yz his birthday prezzie... then we shared cab home... reached home like 1 plus... quickly bathed but i still late la... reached around 3 at tampines... pass yz his prezzie then me and chingz went to eat subway le~ still as nice! =D
then me and chingz went to watch movie cause nothing much to do... watched mr and mrs smith... i like the show alot! i think it's very nice and it has a sweet ending... then i think angelina jolie very pretty worz... nv realise she's this pretty in tomb raiders... =) shuai ge and mei nu in the movie... then finished watching at 7... then like a bit early to go home so we went to mos burger to sit down and have a drink... =D sat until 845 then went home cause i a bit tired... sorry darling! then came home and blogged ba... quite long entry today... hehe...
okiez... i m confused right now! wad does it all mean... i dunno wad u r trying to tell me... izzit that i m thinking too much? i dun wan to be the stupid one again... sighz~ but again, i m already the stupid one le ba... if i m not, i dun think i will even bother so much now... haha feel like pulling my hair right now... dunno wad to think! oh ya, in the movie, i like this quote alot... ---> "it is only at the end when people start to think of the beginning" it's not the exact phrase but something along that context la... i think it's very true... at least for me... i didn't know how to cherish the times i had with u... and only when i lost it then i begin to think of how it all started... but by then, there's nothing i can do already... all i m left with is this thing call memories... no matter how hard i try now, i can't erase all that... is this really the right way to go? dun do anything if u dun mean anything at all ya? it juz makes everything harder for me and indirectly for u...
going off le... nitey~
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
.::StUpId ShIt::.
ermmm dunno what to say abt some things la... maybe some things are juz not wad it seems always... and i feel like i have been too naive... why can't i open my eyes and look carefully and think with my brain instead...
i dun wanna make unnecessary stereotypes but it's juz so hard to deny the facts!!! and it's making me feel disgusted... yeahz... maybe i shouldn't be ba... cause it's not up to me to make judgements... and wad people wan to do is none of my business... but still~ *aRgH*
out~
Monday, June 06, 2005
.::BaCkZ aGaIn::.
i m back for the second time to blog though actually i juz blogged like 2 hours ago... haha =p
but suddenly got some thoughts to write down... before i go sleep and forget abt it tml...
actually, now that things are happening the way it is, i m getting more and more afraid...
afraid of wad some may ask...
i m afraid that history will repeat itself...
juz like last year's may and june period...
i dun think i can survive it a second time ah...
it took me quite some time last year also...
really feeling increasingly apprehensive as each day and each night passed me by...
what if things tml will never be the same again?
what if starting from tml, things start to change?
这是命运的安排还是另外一次不怀好意的玩笑...
Sunday, June 05, 2005
.::SuBwAy::.
i m back again le haha... yesterday when blog still quite bad mood... but when going to sleep that time jiu better le~ of course got reasons la but lazy type... haha...
today morning woke up earlier than i expected also... so a bit sianz la cause still tired... then dunno found the energy from where to do housework... hehe... i vacuumed the house, then clean my room by wiping the computer tables and the shelves... took me a long time to clean my room... and then i mopped the floor... lolz~ really dunno why got the energy to do all these things early in the morning...
then jiu bathe and went out to meet chingz darling... we meet at tm's subway... we eat and studied there ba... studied till 7.30 pm... then jiu went tm to buy some things... then by then also about 9 le... so went home... and chingz really quite unlucky... she went to deposit cash ah and the stupid machine spoiled halfway... so is like her cash also dunno go where... then somemore the bank's personnel still say tml morning then can send people down to investigate the machine... stupid la... hope everything goes well... dun worry ba dear!
okiez... tml's a new week again... hope everything will go right... ^_^ nitey~
Saturday, June 04, 2005
.::WhAt ThE sHiT::.
juz came back from thailand... went for 4 days 3 nights... actually lazy to blog abt the whole trip...
okiez, wad i wanted to blog abt is more abt feelings ba... i m a damn fan jian person i think! before i left, i quite of dun wanna leave and sometimes over there, i wished i m back in sg... but now that i m back, i feel like shit cause i got to bear with a lot of shit from other people the moment i talk to them... and it made me wished i had never come back or even existed... kns can
dun write le ba, sleep
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
.::WiLd WiLd WeT::.
haha i seemed to taken a liking to blogging in the morning now... =p it's like only 916 now... wahaha... i woke up today at 830... haha a bit early for me le... and i slept around 2... so i think i will be tired later in the afternoon... haha...
hehe update about monday ba... went to school for gp mid year exam... it was still ok i guess... time passed quite fast for that 3 hours... then went wild wild wet with jenny joanne and maly directly after school at about noon~ we had been planning to go for a very long time ago already but then the weather always not good on that particular day or juz unpredicted circumstances... haha so is like finally can go!!! we chiong out of sch after the exam... hehe took cab there... we were damn high in the taxi... then reached le changed and stuff~ then wootz! fun all the way... we went on the adult rides like dunno how many times... and the best part is slacking in the long long shiok river... we juz have different positions of slacking every round we go... haha almost didnt wanna get up can... it's so hard!!! cause it's really really slack and relaxing... =D then we went up and went on the rides again... =D and watched a performance there... it was quite nice to watch and made me think of the baton days in kotekitai... ^_^ then went on the rides... and somehow about 430 we ended up in the shiok river again... and this time it's even more comfortable with the sun shining down and we juz lie there... then somehow we had match see who can swim around the river faster... so is like we teamed up... haha and this part was fun tiring funny all mixed together... cause it's sorta hard to swim fast with us laughing so hard... so tiring ah! =D then 6 went up bathe le... then lidat lo... damn seh after bathing... haha we were practically dragging our feet out of downtown east... then took bus to tampines interchange...
then went to meet minying for the mjc tpjc soka meeting thingy... but ah only me and another gal from tpjc turned up... so we juz went burger king eat and talk... but i was so full after juz having a few bites... horrible... so i gave up eating also... haha then left at 9 plus... but i was so tired so i juz took cab home... hehe... then went home... totally tired... went to sleep at 12 plus but i can't get to sleep and juz flip flip flip around... stupid can... haha... think by the time i sleep is about 1 le...
so dun need to say tuesday lessons like shit la... every lecture is like torture... for me i think physics and maths still ok... the worse is chem lect ah... never before i felt so sianz like yesterday during chem lect... the clock like inching slowly... everytime i look only 1 or 2 mins passed... and to make things worse... the lecturer is monotonous... i have a sianz face for the whole lecture... then after school still got spa skill b trial for physics... cause missed 2 monday practicals for the past few weeks... sianz can... i can't connect the stupid circuits... think i m stupid la or i juz sucked at connecting circuits... then was about to cry after physics prac... cause nv sleep well for the past 2 days so i m damn tired... then add the chem lect in... and add the cicuits thingy in... plus i m leaving singapore on wednesday so i guess i was quite sad during tuesday... for wad reason i dunno also... i should be excited... haha? so i almost cried... but i told myself cannot cry cause it's stupid to cry for such stupid things~ so i was about to go home... then chingz darling messaged me and ask me if wanna meet at tm... so i went ba cause i feel like seeing her also before i leave today... and we went subway eat... ^_^ and yea, i felt better but still not good mood... then reached home about 8... then bathe... slack again~ then mood went cranky... i seem to be irritated at the smallest things! bleahz... i hate myself when i m lidat... cause i will be angry at everybody... then 1am went sleep... but again flip... sianz can... so slept at 2... then now wednesday le!
meant to sleep late but i juz cant go back to sleep after i open my eyes at 8 plus... haha... well... today going bangkok le... honestly i dunno wad's my mood also... juz blank ba... hope all things will go right! =D oh well... shall go buy some magazines le... bubbye... will blog more soon... and my blog is officially one year old today!!! =D
CHANTAL KREVIAZUK LYRICS
Leaving On A Jet Plane
I'm ... I'm ...
All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
I'm ...
There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say ...
Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
And I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
But I'm leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane(Ah ah ah ah)
(Leaving) On a jet plane
nice song... from the show armageddon... that show rocks! =D
Sunday, May 29, 2005
.::LoNg TiMe No UpDaTe::.
wahz long time no blog le... 2 weeks! dunno wad to blog also actually... wadever happened in the 2 weeks i also dun remember much... haha~ by right june holidays should start le... but then my school still got lessons for one more week... sighz =( then june have to mug like crazy also for the mid years... haven even started... lolz... jia you ba everybody!!!
ermmm... wad else... well nth much except life is funny sometimes... when u want smth to happen, it wun... then when u tell yourself suan le ba forget it and move on, then all sorts of things u had always wanted to happen do happen... crap! but that's life for u~
okiez juz a short one today... go le~ [p.s i m typing this early in the morning like 10am lolz... i juz woke up =p]
Saturday, May 14, 2005
.::OrChArD aNd PiZzA hUt::.
back to update on the past few days again... start from thurs... went to orchard after school with joanne benson and weile... took cab there... we went to far east plaza first... ate the fried chicken... nice~ benson ordered it with a lot of chilli... damn shiokz! then we juz walk around ba... then went to wheelock's crumpler shop to look at bags... then funny part come liaoz... we went to the nike shop... then we saw this whole rack of socks! and there were some real ugly ones... then dunno who started it by saying eh u buy this ugly one then i buy another ugly one... so in the end we chose very ugly socks for each and everyone of us... and we sat at nike laughing for half an hour debating on who should do wad... i luff till i wanna pee~ lolz... i think the nike staff also dunno to chase us out or let us be... and benson said the classic sentence which was the last straw, i luffed till i almost cried... he said: "first time kanna forced to buy socks, somemore being forced to buy ugly socks" and all our socks got names! mine is brinjal cause it's purple and green, joanne's is sweet potato cause it is orange and grey, benson's is banana cause it's yellow and weile's intial sock is ta tio sai with a brown patch in the middle but after that he bought this sock which looks like a bee... lolz! it's really damn lame... and the worse thing is we dared each other to wear it to sch together the next day and we must take off our shoes... and yea we did wear it on fri... damn ugly la all! =p
okiez then friday the 13th... for the first time this year, i woke up late~ -_- i know the alarm rang at 630 but think i off it then went back to sleep... somemore the day before i slept at 9 plus can... kns lo... normally sleep later can wake up, sleep at 9 plus cannot wake up... wad logic is that! well anyway the next thing i noe, it's 736 le when i wake up... then i was like oh shit~ so rushed la... went to take cab... but i waited 15 mins before a cab came! somemore i was panicking cause today morning first period is pe and got 2.4 run for the napfa test... by the time i reached school already 815 le... then my class downstairs at the track le by the time i reached... then changed to shorts... again damn sway... cause rushing nv see properly then i realised i wore the shorts the wrong way with the logo at the back... -_- so have to run to toilet to change again... worse thing is the guys are outside the toilet and they saw me wearing it the wrong way! lolz... i wanted to dig a hole and hide can~ then jiu run 2.4 lo... after the run, continued to have lessons... and dunno y was damn damn tired during lessons... in fact all the girls are... lolz maybe it's because of the run i guess...
then after school went tamp mall to eat with maly, joanne, and some guys cause it's maly's birthday... we planned on going seoul garden at first but dun have table cause it was packed so we went pizza hut instead... then lame la, the guys started to talk about me wearing shorts the wrong way in the morning... i wished i can disappear from the table~ then left at 6... went home... slack... did nth much...
today sat even more boring... was preparing to go out at first... bathed and everything... but then come out cant decide wad to wear... so in the end, i decided not to go out... lolz... stayed at home the whole day... r-o-t... all because of my stupid attitude... lolz... now also feeling tired already... shan't blog le... nitey everybody~
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
.::HiGh MaNz::.
sunday after dinner went swimming at downtown east with my sis! =D it was a last minute decision la... we had nothing much to do after dinner and she juz suggested go swimming la then i ok! then reached downtown at abt 730... swam till 830 lidat... not very long but shiokz enough! =D then jiu bathe and walk ard downtown a bit... jie got 3 necklaces... damn prettY! they are these big big crystals or rocks and their colours r very prettY! then we went home... by then about 10 le... went home damn tired! but forced myself to study a bit for chem test... yucks lo... haha... then sleep~
monday sch as usual... so so ba... hot day! then cause gp last 2 periods push up to morning slot, so that day 2 plus jiu end sch le... so me joanne benson weile went my fav eatery-SUBWAY! =D we sit for quite some time and it was quite funny as usual... eat till abt 5 plus... before eating, went shopping around for headphones cause benson looking for them... =D then went home around 6... studied for chem test again~ lolz cause test on the next day ah...
then today tuesday! haha had the physical fitness test today during pe lesson... we girls only need to do 5 stations today and 2.4 is on fri cause it is raining ah... but the guys poor thing... they die die have to do both together... so they sorta ran in the drizzle... then during pe ah, dunno y i became damn high le! lame like hell and luff like hell as we went thru the various stations... damn happy dunno y... then the guys ran 2.4 le... then somehow we ended up sitting outside the hall and talk rubbish... then started to lame... some played pepsi cola and we started playing with hair and shoelaces... haha... lame lo~ then we actually sat there till 6 plus... then went home~ now damn tired... juz finished doing some tuts for tml's lessons... shall go sleep le nitey~
Sunday, May 08, 2005
.::YaWnZ::.
intended to blog on fri but too tired on fri and sat so only can blog now... =D thurs actually planned to go wild wild wet but raining... so =( but nvm! can always go next time! so went to eat subway instead with joanne and some of the guys... then rained! so slacked in subway quite long ah... but 5 plus le still raining... so me joanne kev shared cab home... then jiu nth much le for the rest of the day...
then friday was ... interesting~ haha cause it was a day of memories... =D sch ended at 1230 cause today got sports meet in school... then before that pe lesson, we have to carry benches to the bridge there... so it brought back memories of last year's sports meet... =D then end school le... cause signed up to go watch basketball match at the bball centre so dun need go sports day... went on the bus provided by the school... haha then reminds me of last year's learning journey also... lolz... cause it's also like an excursion? =D okiez then went to the bball centre at aljunied... when we reached, sajc and ajc girls were having a match... so we stood there and watched... very exciting! then jiu our sch de boys and vjc... nice also but we lost ah... but nevertheless, it was a good game! =) then jiu went back school on the bus... then realised sports meet juz started due to the rain earlier... -_- oh manz~ so we juz went back slack la and watched the relays lo... drank milo... then walk around, talk... nothing much la... then 630 lidat then end... super sianz lo... cant wait to get home and bathe... so went home le~
then sat went out meet connie and mindy... dunno how long never see them liaoz... about half a year for connie and 3 months for mindy... we went eat and study... lolz... then jiu went shopping... then anyhow la... then went home at about 9 plus... cause nth much to do le...
today very tired also... haiz... never sleep enuff ba i guess... sianz one lo... dunno wad's wrong with me nowadays... sleep also tired, no sleep also tired... everyday also tired... eyes also like panda... i dunno wad i can do to help myself also!!! argh~ okiez slacked most of the weekend away... think should go start studying for the chem test liaoz... bubbye! =D
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
.::MeSsAgE fRoM a GuY aNd A gIrL::.
MeSsAgE fRoM gIrL:
If you see me walking the road with someone else,
It's not because I like his accompany...
Its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.
If you hear me talking about him all the time,
Its not because he pleases me...
Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat.
If you feel me falling with someone new,
Its not because I love him...
But because you're not there to catch me fall.
If you feel lost, I too am nowhere...
I too don't know where the road is going.
Are we gonna cross each other's path?
Or just completely turn around?..
Will we just let go of what we had?
Or go to the place where love is bound?..
Don't let me walk with him,
It's you I want to walk with...
Don't let me talk of him,
it's you I want to talk with...
Don't let me fall for him,
It's you I want to fall in love with...
"HOW DID THE GUY REPLY?"
When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you,
I was behind you every step of the way...
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stand before me.
When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat,
I didn't want to assume anything...
And I was afraid to lose our friendship.
When you thought I wasn't there to catch you,
It was because you never gave me the chance.
You never reached the bottom,
you've already grabbed a branch.
If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going...
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?
Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with...
WHEN I SAW YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO YOU...
WHEN I TALKED TO YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO HOLD YOU...
WHEN I HOLD YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO LOVE YOU...
NOW THAT I LOVE YOU ...
I'M AFRAID TO LOSE YOU...
SOMETIMES LOVE HURTS...BUT IF IT DOESN'T HURT...
THEN IT ISN'T LOVE...
HOLD ON TO THE PERSON U LOVE...BEFORE HE/SHE SLIPS AWAY...AND U CAN NEVER GET HIM/HER BACK
[I kNoW i Am LeTtInG gO... aS LoNg U r HaPPy CaN Le Lo... StiLL fReNs Ya? ThIs TiMe It'S rEaLLy FoR gOOd...
Sunday, May 01, 2005
.::HaPpY LoNg WeEkEnD::.
had a tiring but happy weekend... fri after school play ball for a while... it was really fun! then went to subway with joanne and wenhui... after that joyce joined us... then eat le... went to see got movie watch anotz... but the timings are all weird~ so nv watch... so went starbucks and slack... for once, i nv drink coffee... had the iced tea with raspberry syrup... but still frappucino nicer! =) then sat very long ah... had a long talk with joyce too... juz talked rubbish and about a lot of other things in life... then took cab home... then dun remember wad i do le... lolz...
saturday morning go do cip with jenny and joanne at city hall... had subway for breakfast... very nice... then cause we reached suntec de subway at about 940... but the subway only open at 10... so we sat at the subway seats there... though they nv on the lights... lolz... romantic sia... we 3 juz sit there talk rubbish until 10 then eat lo~ then after eating walked around aimlessly trying to find a good place to station ourselves... went to this suntec overhead bridge at first but not much people... so we went funan that side... also not much people but can make do with it la... i juz station myself at some ulu corner of peninsula plaza... though ulu, but still got people walk past and donate... got a lot of 2 dollar notes yesterday... but jenny most pro le... got one person donate $50 sia!
then after cip 1 plus le... me and jo agreed long ago to go eat mee hoon kwey at boon keng so we took a cab there as we are too lazy... =x haha the mee hoon kwey still as nice as last time! =D then eat finish le she went home while i took bus to orchard meet my mom and sis...
we went shopping for a while... then decided to go to sis's club at fort canning there to play pool... cause we having early mother day's dinner there later in the evening anyway... so went there... then bro in law taught me how to play pool! hehe enlightened a bit bit.. at least now i can hit slightly straighter... last time my ball is go everywhere de... lolz... all directions... then bro and sis in law reached le so we go the restaurant there eat lo... okok ba...
eat le went carrefour at ps with mama and papa to buy groceries for sunday cause we having picnic at sentosa... then went home le... damn tired so i bath already then sleep le... =D
then today picnic at sentosa lo... went to tanjong beach... swam back and froth to the opposite beach... =D my first time swimming long distance... normally i dun dare swim long cause scared... but today sis say haiya juz gan gan la... hehe it worked... then eat and swim eat and swim... lolz... like dunno wad sia... then started to rain at 4 plus... sianz! so packed up and left le... then my parents and i went harbourfront shopping centre eat... then took mrt home... now slacking... tired again lolz...
okiez... hands tired le... go le~ bubbye~
[HmMm... WaD mUsT i Do BeFoRe I cAn StOp ThInKiNg AbOuT u EvErYdAy?]
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
.::HoT wEaThEr::.
the weather is getting unbearable these few days especially yesterday! manz, i can almost see stars~ okiez that doesn't really link and make sense... =P watched coach carter that day... damn damn damn nice! it's like so inspirational and exciting at the same time... the basketball matches in the movie was extremely nice to watch... after the whole thing, felt inspired! though i dunno wad it inspire me to do but juz got that feeling... so everybody, go watch!
and saturday finally had the mee hoon kuay at boon keng... had cravings for it since dunno when but lazy to go back to boon keng la... haha when saturday i ate it ah, the feeling can be described in one word: suang! =D
school is as usual boring... so nth much to update there...
and well, i think some things are changing... slowly but definitely... the feelings are not really there anymore and i juz hoped if possible, he will get together with her and at least both of my frens will be happy! =D was walking home juz now la and suddenly this things juz came to my mind... somehow, it came very clearly to me juz now that it's time to move on and the good thing is me and him are still friends! =D cleared out my thoughts and doubts finally... but weird why it should come at such a time when i wasn't even thinking about it in the first place... just weird timing~ so yup! this is it... see how things goes from now ba!
someone once mentioned to me: wei sher mo ming ming xi huan que bu shuo chu lai? wad if we lose the chance to say it ever? someone else mentioned another thing: i thot me and him shared smth special... but apparently i m wrong... how much do i mean to him? me: good questions
okiez, dinnertime...
[aLL i WiSh FoR nOw Is ThAt aLL oF uS wiLL bE hApPy... If I cAn HeLp HeR, i WiLL...]
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
.::MeMoRiEs Of ThE pAsT::.
well this week had been ...... hectic~ everyday has a lot of work to do cause next day must hand in the work... ahhh... actually it should be manageable la... but juz that i usually slack until 9 plus at night then start doing work so it's no wonder i have to rush everything out... but busy good! at least wun feel so restless and when u completed the things u r supposed to finish, think most people will have a sense of accomplishment ba... =D
okiez this week thought about the past a lot... like in j1, thought about how carefree we were during the first 3 months and up till june before the mid years... from then on, it's like a turning point for school life... everything is like more stressed and reality like finally sunk in... and friendship changed too... then there's pw and the promos... everybody worked hard for it... pw period after the promos was fun... cause everyone started laming together... in a weird way, pw bonded the class... we will play cards, slack in classrooms with the laptops, ordering mac into the school and eating together in the classrooms... then got learning journey also? i will nv forget that trip... also got the school's sports day... when we juz sat there drinking cups after cups of milo... haha... inter-house games, eat banana at the last minute before tug of war begins so that we can have more energy... lolz, dunno wad logic is that... then last time also every tuesday will go out eat pastamania... before june also always go out slack with jenny... go chinatown buy shampoo is one incident i wun forget also... with joyce also got a lot of memories... our movie mania, then friendster testimonial competition, starbucks frenzy, working at mm, the daily sms sessions, slacking at the benches behind the hall... lolz, all quite nice memories... then got chalet! that was fun also~ still got a lot ah but dunno how to list it all out... hehe...
maybe a bit lame ah why i suddenly type the previous paragraph... but then i also dunno y i juz keep thinking of the past this week... yuan lai a lot can happen in one year... and now time also flies... it's already april... half the year almost gone... to think about it, how much time do i still have with the class and with all my friends in school? not much...
then this year 4 months had already passed... all of us went thru the block test together... getting pw results... getting chinese a level results... the weekly bball sessions... the fun we had during pe... the buffet lunches we had... the movies we watched... cip with the girls and not forgetting our cycling trip at east coast! my point is, sometimes i may seem like i dun care... but actually i remembered everything... everything matters to me juz that i dun really show it ya... and all these memories are like roots... they are like embedded somewhere... they r all a part of me! it is all these simple simple little things which made me realise actually i m very very fortunate... =) it also acts as reminders to me that i should not take everything for granted and start to cherish the simple things in life... they might be simple but they are the very things that makes one happy and feel loved...
okiez maybe this is crap to u all but then had been wanting to blog about this for a few days le... finally it's all out! =D go sleep le... nitey all...
[I aLsO dUnNo WhAt I cAn Do NoW oR hOw I fEeL aNyMoRe Le...]
Thursday, April 14, 2005
.::SaKaE sUsHi::.
today after school went to simei's sakae to eat... went with weile, joanne, kev and benson... ate from 330 to about 530... then as usual talked rubbish la... during eating, weile took multi shots of benson eating gyoza so is like when u view it one by one at a fast speed it's damn funny... but the funnier thing is weile suggest looking at it backwards one by one... so instead of looking benson eating the gyoza, it now looks like he is puking out the gyoza... -_- luff till stomachache... then benson ate a lot gyozas mahz so after he eat finish, weile go lame and present him with a "prize" using the sakae menu... then kev taking video of the whole "ceremony"... again laugh until like sai...
then after that we went to the pet safari... the dogs there damn cute!!! i like this pair of golden retriever puppies... then benson like the siberian husky and weile like another white one... dunno wad breed lai de but it looks damn fluffy... looking at the dogs make me happy! ^_^
then take mrt home le... feeling sleepy now... lolz...
oh yeahz, yeterday something unexpected happened... we talked on the phone for about half an hour... =D maybe not a big deal u might say... but to me it is! cause it's the first time... so yea, very happy... =)
okiez la... enough of my crap... go watch tv le... nitey! =)
["We AwOkE fRoM oUr DrEaMs, ThInGs ArE nOt aLwAyS wHaT tHeY sEeM... MeMoRiEs LiNgEr On, LiKe A sWeEt SaD oLd SoNg..." WhAt HaPpEnEd YeStErDaY rEmInDs Me Of LaSt YeAr'S mEmOrIeS wItH u... =D]
Sunday, April 10, 2005
.::MiSs CoNgEnIaLiTy 2::.
went to plaza singapura meet up with my sis... we went shopping around first then eat... then went to watch movie... watched miss congeniality 2... recently like got a lot nice movies... and a few more is showing soon... ahhH~ not sure if have the time to catch them all... =D
school de timetable also change le... fri short day 1230 release become 2 release... =( because of remedial lessons... oh crap~ but guess it's for our own good also if not all our j1 work confirm out of sight out of mind...
okiez... this week had been a roller coaster ride... lesson learnt is nv take anything or anyone for granted even if they are always there... now that things had changed, then i noe how to regret... but it's too late... things will take some time before it goes back to the way it is or worse situation is, it will nv go back to the way it is... have nobody to blame but me... i wish i can be truthful to some people... =( but i m scared of the consequences... oh well... will juz give it deeper thought and find the best solution if possible... most importantly is to remain positive and calm? =(
well shall go bathe now... hot weather... tata~
[ThInGs ArE dIfFeRenT aLrEaDy... HoPe EvErYtHiNg gOeS wELL... =D]
Friday, April 01, 2005
.::VoLLeYbaLL::.
today slack day as usual... had been tired this whole week since tuesday... dunno is sleep not enough or wad... everyday 10 plus i feel tired le... go home after school also only feel like sleeping... hehe but well, guess i will survive~
today after school played basketball for a while with 214... but after that, we switched to volleyball le... kinda funny... and it's like a bit of de-stress from all the hoo-ha over the march block test... so yep, feels good to be playing and not worrying abt other things for the time being... =D
somemore, today everyone around me seems to be in a happy happy mood... and that makes me happy also! cause seeing their smiles and feeling their lameness is enough to make me happy too... looking at my classmates' happy faces, there's juz this feeling of joy ba... =D so in good mood now... had an enjoyable day overall...
haiz tomorrow got cip... =( dun feel like doing it at all... but then no choice la... need the hours sighz... why didnt they do away with the PEARLS system for my batch! *sObZ* but well, what to do~ = hopefully tomorrow will be slack! okiez dokez, i m feeling tired again... haha shall go watch tv... nitey~
[EvErY mOmEnT sPeNt WiTh YoU aRe SoMe Of tHe BeSt TiMeS Of My LiFe... =D]

