.::ApPrEcIaTiOn::.

hiyaz diary...

had a relatively good week this week as compared to the last 3 weeks... hee...

today had a nice surprise by one of my tuition kid... =)

went for tuition as usual and when i was about to leave, the mum asked me to wait first and asked her youngest son out (i m giving tuition to both her sons, one p6 and one sec 1) he came out and passed me a royce plastic bag saying it's for me...

i was still quite blur and asked him for what, he say for teacher's day... super surprised! cause i totally didn't expect a prezzie and i m just a tuition teacher not even a school teacher... another thing is i didn't even realize it's teacher's day tomorrow!

inside the plastic bag got a box of very nicely wrapped royce chocolates and a bag of famous amos cookies...



the mother then continued to explain that the chocs are from her and the cookies was bought by the son with his own saved up pocket money...

i roughly remember i asked the younger son before what's his pocket money per day and it was $1.50... now as we all know famous amos cookies are not say very cheap somemore with his amount of pocket money, i think he saved for quite some time la... i was SUPER touched by his action... it's the thought behind it and not the prezzie that makes me touched...

so ya... after that i thought though it may be tough to travel around from end to end of sg everyday just to give tuition, at least now i know someone appreciates it and it sort of makes everything worthwhile... at least the effort i put in had not gone to waste or unappreciated... and this appreciation just meant so much to me right now... it came at the right time just when i really felt like giving up... also gives me motivation to carry on and complete my job for the remaining 1 month or so...

for the coming month will be super busy as the PSLE is coming soon... hopefully, i will be able to survive and i will always remember this act by my student that changed my whole perspective~

yep~ going off to sleep le! nitey

.::JuRoNg PoInT::.

hiyaz diary...

some random pics first of my niece and food!

mango crepe with movenpick peppermint ice cream

chingz darling and me at starbucks opposite taka



had a good day today in school...

lessons early morning... so unwilling to wake up so early but well, still managed to in the end...

then after lessons got 4 hours break... went jp with come tutorial mates... it was enjoyable la... ate lunch(subway yay!), shopped around and went to the arcade...

trying to look for the laptop case but all out of stock one... comex fair is coming hehe! can't wait to go...

oh ya back back, after the outing, went back to school for lecture... and then my friends and i had to kill another 3 more hours cause tonight is the deli aprecio club's welcome tea at 7.30pm... was damn bored during that 3 hours cause nothing to do!!!

came back to hall around 9 plus 10... so tired! if only everyday can be lidat whereby there's no need to rush back to give tuition... shouldn't uni life be carefree and enjoyable... i dunno... i am just not really enjoying it right now...

when can i ever ADAPT?!! argh

.::QuIeT tImE::.

hiyaz diary...

i dun like travelling on the public transport alone... cause too much free time on hand to let me think of alot of things... and they always make me analyze things too much and i end up being upset...

i dun like the night sometimes too... it's always a time when everything seems more vulnerable than before...

whatever it is, i experienced both scenarios just now... i hate the feeling...

.::AnOtHeR wEeK::.

hiyaz diary...

it's late hee... but got nothing much to do also so thought i would come blogging...

yest went out with chingz darling for lunch at tamp mall... but i ended up quite late... paiseh...

we went mos burger... surprisingly it was not very crowded at mos... i supposed all the people went to town instead...

after some eating and chatting, we headed down to bugis and shop shop there... she recommended me the green tea ice cream... so nice so nice!!! thanks for the recommendation!

after that we went shopping around edge and parco... i bought a 3/4 jeans! i hope i dun look like auntie... =(

we then went for dessert at the streets behind... nice nice!

then i went off to boon keng le for discussion meeting... got a lot of food to eat at the end... maybe because never eat dinner, i was quite hungry! got curry puffs, fishballs, soon kueh, sweet potato balls, jelly, fruit cake, cheesecake, red bean paste balls, shui jing bao and even ice cream! still got some others but i forgot some le... anyway, the curry puffs were pretty good! i like~ talking about food is making me hungry right now... hehe

after that went home and my family played mahjong... started to have a terrible headache and stomachache... what a combination!

went to sleep after that and it was all ok again this morning...

went out with dearie today for a movie and dinner... watched the break up... i find it a bit sad and i actually teared a bit... =(

after that was dinner at the vilage where the old marche is... basically, everything looked and tasted the same...

then we went back home after dinner... took my stuff and we met up again at tamp and began the journey to the west side of singapore... lolz... his camp and my school very near so can travel together... 8 mins apart only! hehe... got company travelling longer distances makes the distance much more bearable... =p

now back in hall le... vacuumed and packed up after i came back... a whole new week is coming!

oh well, backtrack here a bit... i mentioned watching the break up right... it actually struck a chord within me...

recently like see a lot people around me (whether i knew them directly anotz) breaking up... and i can't help but wonder how fragile can a relationship get? i dunno... some lasted a few months, some a few weeks and maybe even just a few days... i used to think long term relationships are a norm in the current society and it's easy to maintain it but now i know i am wrong...

it all depends on both parties and so much more factors... it's not as simple as : "u want it, u've got it" i dunno~ all this made me thought through things and i'm quite glad that i got dearie... =)

he's always so tolerant of me and always tries to be there especially these few weeks when every week had been a stuggling one for me... although sometimes things get tough due to him serving ns or due to me but there had never been very nagging issues between us... somehow, we always tide through them one way or another... and that's just one of the few things that i am thankful for...

to dearie: though now u in ns and we are both in 2 totally different phases of life, but i really hope everything will not change for the worse between us... of course not i say out already then it will happen by itself, i know also need us to work on it... there's no correct or right way of telling u how much u had became an integral part of my life but it's already a fact to me...

and dun be so moody about the ns thingy hao ma... ur booking in syndrome (the name i gave it! =p) whenever u have to book in... time always flies... maybe i not u and not experiencing it, i dun understand... but whatever it is, u know it will pass sooner or later... maybe u can't help it also but i m sure with a optimistic and positive attitude, it will be much easier for u!

okiez... gotta go, it's 3.21 am already... nitey~

.::NeW LaPtOp::.

hiyaz diary...

i collected my laptop today! photos next time... right now still in hall setting it up...

very sianz while waiting for the thing to download finish... my eyes feel like closing already~

actually i got nothing to blog about as u all may had realised by now...

nitey~

.::PoTeNtIaLiTy & ReALiTy::.

hiyaz diary...

got this from an email... quite funny to me

Youngest Son: "Tell me Daddy, what is the difference between "Potentiality" and "Reality"?"

Dad: "I will show you"

Dad turns to his wife and asks her: "Would you sleep with Robert Redford for 1 million dollars"?

Wife: "Yes of course! I would never waste such an opportunity"...

Then Dad asks his daughter, if she would sleep with Brad Pitt for 1 million dollars?

Daughter:" Wow! Yes! he is my fantasy!"

So Dad turns to his elder son and asks him: "Would you sleep with Tom Cruise for 1 million dollars"?

Elder Son: "Yeah! Why not? Imagine what I could do with 1 million Dollars! I would never hesitate!"

So the father turns back to his younger son saying: "You see son, "Potentially" we are sitting on 3 million dollars, but in "Reality" we are living with 2 prostitutes and 1 gay.

.::BuSy::.

hiyaz diary...

i would love to blog but i am super busy... another time ya...

meanwhile, saw these 3 cakes at taka basement that's super cute! they are in the shape of a porcupine, a teapot and a cabbage respectively... looks too good to eat!

so cute! okiez gotta go... no time no time!

.::HoMe::.

hiyaz diary...

finally another week is over for me! phew~ damn tired everyday... no end to it no end!

back at home now finally... tomorrow still got tuition...

i had never dreaded tuition so so so much until NOW...

hall is boring sometimes cause no tv no comp no nothing... please let my laptop arrive faster! i wanna install a tv also but i not sure whether it will work out in the end...

lessons are still ok for now...

anyway gotta go... tired out

.::BoReD::.

hiyaz diary...

blogging from my roommate's laptop... =( today finally one night no tuition cause i cancelled it... but sorta nothing to do in hall also...

tv must go down lounge room watch of which i m lazy to do so... so can only read in my room lo or do homework... but everything just seemed boring la... just had dinner alone in the room... takeaway... =( sad sad sad! no one accompany me lehz! most of my friends in sch not staying in hall so no choice eat dinner alone...

ah these few days have been tiring as usual... travelling here and there for tuition and school... i need more hours! lolz but who doesn't need that sometimes...

i miss my old friends and dearie! =(

trying to kill time by blogging but apparently i got nothing to blog about... lolz! bubbye! i shall go watch singapore idol if the tv is on that channel in the lounge room! hee...

.::HaPpY bEsTiE oUtInG::.

hiyaz diary...

today went out with chingz darling... quite some time never meet le... only got talk on phone or msn...

we went eat at ps mos burger first and chatted away! so many things to catch up on! hee and i grilled all the juicy details out from her...

then we went shopping for a hp pouch together and walked down to orchard area la... finally got the same pouch at m)phosis... glad! we got the same hp pouch lolz! though it's quite a common thing la... but who says small things can't make u happy? =p

went to starbucks after that opposite taka and we chatted a lot more there... it was totally relaxing and soothing i can say! now i feel so much better compared to the sucky week i had previously... as the saying goes, if u can't beat them, join them...



then we walked back to ps again to go carrefour and gnc to buy some foodstuff and honey respectively...

after that it's going home time!

a lot of things on my mind recently... never-ending one it seems! but whatever it is, i know i got a great family, chingz and dearie around me! truly blessed! =)

talked things out with dearie already... things should be ok for now... it's a new day and a new week ahead! cheerios~

.::bLeSsEd::.

hiyaz diary...

an incident happened this morning... made me cry for an hour =x

but it also made me realised i have really really great siblings... i swear to repay them back in one way or another when i go out to work next time...

at that point of time, wanted to call somebody to hear me out... anybody... but i dun think people will appreciate me waking them up early noon just to hear my cries... haa so abandoned the idea...

whatever it is, i realised sometimes the truth is all it takes to solve something... i should had realised that long ago but no~ it took me this long to learn it...

i will be fine

.::SpArE tYrE::.

hiyaz diary...

finally the weekend is here... but i don't feel any better...

i m not a spare tyre... maybe it's not the case but it's just the feeling i get... dun tell me one story and later i realise it's a whole different story, i just felt stupid for harbouring that hope/expectation when it's not even going to happen...

damn tired out by everything~

.::bLaNk BLaNk & mOrE bLaNkNeSs::.

hiyaz diary...

i had never felt so tired so busy and so blank in my 18 years of life...

i need you more than ever before...

.::NaTiOnaL dAy PaRaDe::.

hiyaz diary...

went for national day parade with chingz darling... had a great time...



got took quite some photos but i really very lazy to upload all la... so just put a few nice ones of the fireworks~

that's it~ bubbye!

.::ReSoLuTiOnS::.

hiyaz diary...

suddenly blogging more frequently now... haha...

today was slack, slept till 9 plus bathed and then went to meet mama papa at the computer shop... gotta sign the laptop agreement and stuff... happy that i bought my laptop finally! but will only get it around 1 or 2 weeks later... can't wait! bought microsoft office too cause it's going at a promotional price so quite a good deal... glad glad glad~

after that had my very first lecture in ntu... i sound like some nerd/weirdo but i actually find the lecture interesting... haha... cause it's something that i had nv touched before and maybe it's the 1st lecture la so find it new... who knows maybe after a few lectures, i will start to fall asleep le... hehe!

argh i got so many things to go like choosing electives and the timetabling... overwhelmed!!! so many things to do so little time...

oh well, can't really sleep last night... thinking about a lot of things...

this time round, it's a new start... thinking of what i want to achieve after 3 years?

i want to change to a much open person, being able to take up challenges and overcome them... i guess is no more slacking my life away like in sec sch and jc... fading into the background... i dun wan all that to happen again... time to take charge of my life! i m still young now, if not now then when!

then of course, get into uni is for that degree... so i must strive to get at least a decent degree after 3 years... so work hard study hard play hard... strike a balance~

lastly, i want to contribute as well as benefit/learn from ntusd... again, fd days asd days had passed me by... time to get out there!

in short, just wanna be the person i always wanted to be but never was... the last phase of schooling life has reached me and i should cherish it right from the start ba...

ya, sound like crap, but i think when u have a positive mindset from the start, it's much easier to get things done... =)

besides all this so called "resolutions", thinking of other things too... i wish i am as sure about those things just like i m about my resolutions... unfortunately, it doesn't happen that way... but i believe time will tell just like it always does... =)

that's about it...

very lazy about tuition now cause of the travelling... please let me survive these 2 months and let the PSLE pass REAL SOON~

.::FiRsT dAy Of ScHooL::.

hiyaz diary...

in hostel typing this now hehe! finally got the internet to work...

yesterday was my last day of free status... =( tomorrow starting school le... haiz! very sianz... though slacked for quite long about 8 months but then still think it's not enough la...

went for ntusd meeting at 3 pm not too bad interactive...

then after that went meet dear at town for a movie and dinner... we watched helen the baby fox and then went to cineleisure's hong kong cafe for dinner... the ambience is good and i like the design of the restaurant... =) nice comfortable seats... price is relatively alright i guess and the food is not too bad... overall a nice place... i will definitely go there again!

i then went back to the hostel straight... something that struck me is that the people are all very friendly here, the security guards, the cleaners, hallmates, mostly everyone la... good night good morning hi and smiles are very common... something that i had not experienced before... so i had a pretty good impression of the school the first night already...

back at the hostel, i m damn freaked out though cause my roommate haven moved in yet and i will be sleeping alone for the night... super scary! i kept the lights open throughout and i kept waking up throughout the night... one of the worst sleep i ever tried... i dun even dare to bathe cause the toilets are outside and it looks pretty scary... but eventually, i still went to bathe around 1am la...

slept around 2 plus 3 am and woke up at 7am and in between of course... sianz... but first day quite excited so dun really feel the tiredness (if there's such a word) in the morning... my school organised a welcome day for us and it was informative and fun overall... knew more people and the school system la...

my tutorial group for one of the modules was quite good also... made quite some frens and i even found one who lives near me so we can travel back together on the days our timetables match...

then after that is this major party event at the audi around eveing but i left quite early cause too tired la! walked back to hostel with my roommate and a hallmate...

overall a good first day... =)

i miss dearie and chingz darling though... these feelings are hard to explain but i just missed chingz whenever i hear my new mates say they knew so and so for how many years and now still together in same school and stuff lidat la... i just wished i m studying together with her or something...

maybe i m being stupid or something la... but i miss dearie alot as well... some things really dun feel like saying it out here cause in a way, i can't really express it well in words and i dun wan people to misunderstand...

but i guess what a professor said about uni life during one of his welcome speeches today is right... "uni life is about getting out of your comfort zone" so it made sense to adapt and integrate... that's what i think for now la... afterall saying is easier than doing it...

okiez, typed so much crap... sorry no pics cause i forgot to bring my phone cable in and i can't load pics in yet... shall stop here... nitey all...

.::PaCkInG & uNpAcKiNg::.

hiyaz diary...

today made a trip to the hostel to put my stuff inside... got 8 plastic bags full of things... =x fortunately, sis drove me and mum there and they helped me unpack... =)

we reached there around 5 plus and i brought them around to see see and changed the bedsheets and stuff...

i haven seen my roommate yet but she seems really nice... she cleaned the whole room and i didn't even need to do anything except clean the top cupboard... basically, she washed the curtains, aired the matresses, mop the floor, wipe the window grilles, fan, walls, shoe rack, shelves, drawers etc... i felt SO bad for not doing anything except clean the top cupboard... can't wait to meet her and thank her!

we left at around 7pm and then went off to eat zi char with my bro in law joining us~

went my house after that and we played mahjong... i slept after that, woke up halfway and still so sleepy now!

i am moving in to hostel tomorrow! sch is starting on monday... wish me luck! =p nitey all...

.::DeArIe'S bIrThDaY cELeBrAtIoN::.

hiyaz diary...

start with thursday first...

3rd August 2006 (Thursday)

slacked at home the whole noon cause only got morning tuition for today... packed my stuff for the hostel and i am almost done with packing... hee... fortunately got mama help me...

evening time dear say he can book out so i went tamp meet him for dinner... ate and then watched a movie hard candy over at tm... ermmm, i thot it's a damn psychotic movie and it would be fun to watch but then it's sorta boring at the start... and after that it's really damn psychotic but not really the kind of psychotic i m looking for so yeah i didn't really enjoy the show as much...

4th August 2006 (Friday)

morning went his house eat subway for breakfast and watch dvd... we still can't finish the show... T_T still got like a long way to go... slow!

went out after that to suntec city... but we went raffles city first to look at his shoes at aldo... in the end decided to go to the suntec branch to buy it though raffles city also got... oh we tried the new starbucks drink strawberries and cream... not too bad but i like the green tea frap better!

then to suntec, after trying again, we bought the shoes and that's his birthday present~ haha, yeah no surprise for this birthday present cause SOMEONE made me think he's gonna buy it and i sorta blurted it out last week... =x

afterwhich, we headed to pariss for buffet dinner... unknown to us beforehand, there is a 41% for the first 20 diners as their promotion and we are the first 20~ so got discount! yay... eat for close to 3 hours... hehe! the ambience is okok la... nice music and nice lights~

got quite some varieties... seafood, fried food, sashimi, sushi, cooked food, buns, siew mai, abalone, soup, steak, salmon, satay, tempura, foie gras with crackers and i can't remember what else... a great variety of drinks, dessert and fruits too... my fav of the favourites is the choc fondue manz... couldn't stop eating that... haha! the chocolate is power!

dear peeling prawn



going clockwise from bottom: crayfish, oyster, mussel and scallop



lobster and prawns



this pic doesn't look really appealing la haha but there's fish beef and abalone wrapped with lettuce



satay on bottom left and tempura with crackers next to it and the plate above it is sliced roasted beef



fondue~ marshmallows~



then we went watch a movie at 9 at marina... watched click... nice show... funny and touching at the end... teaches us the importance of the family... hee...

after the movie, we took some photos at the walkway outside... the lights very pretty but i forgot on night mode again and so the photos a bit dark...



and then it's home for the day~

.::HaPpY 19tH bIrThDaY tO dEaRiE::.

the title says it all~

.::MaTrIcULaTiOn::.

hiyaz diary...

matriculated today... my time table is slack slack slack! =) dun even have lessons on friday~ yes! super glad!

but i guess cause it's just semester 1 so quite slack at first... but nonetheless, i m contented for now...

finally managed to squeezed my tuition slots in nicely with the new timetable... gonna be packed and super busy but i just have to tolerate it for another 2 more months before my students' PSLE ends and then i can find some new tuition again near my school!

okiez dokez~ nitey all!

.::HoStEL::.

hiyaz diary...

today went to my hostel to collect my keys... the room okok la... simple enough... nothing much to say but it stinks when i went in due to lack of ventilation i think cause close the doors and windows for too long...

my roommate left me a note on my board! hee hope i will get to see her soon~ her name is dorothy...

after that went visit my dog at my auntie's house with my mum... he looks SOOO cute! =) i am really very very glad to see that he is adapting well to his new home... i have not seen him for exactly 4 months already!

then went chinatown with mum to get some stuff for the hostel like toiletries and stuff la... we had dessert first and all of it tasted so yummy... she had walnut paste, i had almond paste and we shared a water chestnut kueh~ nice nice nice!

went for tuition at night after that and that's it for my day today... a bit sad at night but well i guess it will pass soon~ nitey all~

[HaPpY 7 MoNtHs DeArIe]