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hiyaz diary...

just wondering about something last night and wanted to blog about it... but i was on the phone with ll and i shut down the lappie and only remembered i got something to blog after i shut down...

i had a nice chat with that girl! i miss all my girls! chingz darling, ll, mic & nana! all of whom i had not went out for quite sometime already for some girls' talk!

anyway i had digressed too much... i was just wondering when was the last time i had been truly happy? my mum commented last night she think i have no energy at all nowadays... she said that i am so young and yet i dun even portray a bit of the kind of happiness and energy level youths should have...

felt like telling her what had been bothering me all these while but i didn't... cause i knew that telling her wun make the problems go away and i am not sure what kind of comments she will give me... i definitely dun need sarcastic ones at this point in time... so i just gave her a sad look and returned to looking at the comp...

so back to the question, when was the last time i am truly happy? i can't remember when... i think nowadays it's easy to see people laughing and joking around when what they really feel inside is a far cry from what they are portraying outside...

haha enough of emo stuff... i am gonna watch some dvds... finally no tuition today and i can slack my day away...